The DU Lounge
Related: Culture Forums, Support ForumsVanity Question: Did you ever consider yourself good looking, or conversely, ugly?
Last edited Thu Oct 24, 2024, 04:23 PM - Edit history (1)
I had a friend, a real good looking guy - a real friend - who tried to pick me up when I was really, really, really down on myself, who said he wished he looked like me. It was a long time ago, but I remember it because it seemed so weird. I felt - and a part of it was psychological - extremely ugly, extremely unattractive, although if I look at pictures from that time of my life, I was sort of average looking, if unkempt from poor grooming habits.
Anyway, with gentle praise and advice, that guy saved my life. We've drifted apart, but I will never exhaust my gratitude to him for what he did in that time and place.
Lately, as my life winds down and I reflect on it, I've taken to looking at pictures of my wife from early in our marriage, and in one or two, I don't look entirely bad, but to tell the truth, in those pictures that really capture her beauty in which I also appear, I tend to crop myself out using imaging tools. I like them better that way, without me.
Now, when I'm photographed, I feel I look like Mr. Potatohead, which is not to insult a fresh Mr. Potatohead, but one made after the Potato has been stored in the closet too long, left out in the rain, or in the sun.
I had to give a talk on line recently, and I had to ask my assistant in preparing for it with a picture, if we could find any picture that was remotely appealing. (She's a good kid, and managed to get something not entirely indecent by making me laugh when taking new pictures.)
One of the remarkable things about my wife, which I never really understood, was that among women that beautiful in a purely physical way, she had no trace of vanity; knowing her well, I understand that too, was psychological; her emotional state when I first knew her didn't admit to beauty in herself, although it did among us puerile men.
And I do think that many people have experienced, as I have, thinking a person beautiful when first seeing them until something about them focused one's attention on their physical flaws and makes them less attractive, or conversely, someone who seemed plain until they came to be seen as extremely beautiful because of something in their manner.
I'm interested to know how people felt about their appearance and more importantly, how they felt about their physical appearance was affected by their psychological state.
Ocelot II
(120,002 posts)but some days I look in the mirror and feel like I'm as ugly as armful of assholes. I avoid being photographed whenever possible because all I see are the flaws, which are many. Probably nobody else really cares, though.
quaint
(3,446 posts)I am working on a family photo collage wall and was actually surprised to see I was not close-your-eyes ugly, and shocked that I didn't look fat, which in those years I was convinced I was, though I was barely 100 pounds. Twas the Twiggy generation, not The Kardashians.
True Dough
(19,899 posts)more than a handful of assholes at a time. An armful would be, well, an armful!
You probably look fine to everyone else. But here's the thing, you're smaht, wicked smaht. You can't fake that, as some people have attempted:
https://abovethelaw.com/2024/02/alina-would-you-rather-be-smart-or-pretty/
We can all see she's never quite pulled it off!
JoseBalow
(4,860 posts)keithbvadu2
(39,779 posts)Oh, I know how homely I are...
I know my face ain't no star...
But I really don't mind it...
Because I'm behind it...
It's the folks in the front that I jar.......
NNadir
(34,448 posts)Lincoln told a story about himself walking in the woods when he came upon a man with a gun.
The man looked at him and said, "Sir, I have no quarrel with you, but I'm afraid I must shoot you, because I have vowed that if I ever met a man uglier than I am, I would kill him."
Lincoln said he opened his shirt and said, "Sir, fire away, because if I am truly uglier than you, I do not deserve to live."
By his contemporaries Lincoln was generally regarded as an ugly man, but today we all see his face has beautiful, kindly, and deep.
That is, I think, an example of how one's looks are controlled, in the end at least, by who one is.
rsdsharp
(10,038 posts)Lincoln replied, If I had another face, do you think Id wear this one?
NNadir
(34,448 posts)Redleg
(6,090 posts)I did look good in photos from 20 years ago.
NNadir
(34,448 posts)...to not comment if these questions are too personal or intrusive.
Redleg
(6,090 posts)or overall satisfaction with my life. They didn't matter much when I was more attractive either.
NNadir
(34,448 posts)...this is the best time in my life, even as the time to leave it approaches.
keithbvadu2
(39,779 posts)Reminds me of the many Trump memes depicting him as a muscled super-hero.
duncang
(3,336 posts)Squinty eyes and nose getting bigger. But thats expected in my family. Still have all my hair. Getting old comes with a lot of changes.
NNadir
(34,448 posts)...I feel far less ugly inside myself than I did when I was young, thin, and in good shape if not emotionally, and in appearance, in terms of physical endurance and strength.
I feel as if I have lived and will leave something to the future, my beloved sons, and that has made my life, if certainly not my face, wonderful and worth living, in the last case, the joy of being with my wife.
Solly Mack
(92,316 posts)But it depends on how I feel on any given day on how I think I look.
LuckyCharms
(18,737 posts)Sitting here thinking about your post, I honestly cannot think of anyone in my recent past or long ago past that I would view as ugly.
I don't see beauty as perfection. Concurrently, I can't find "beauty" in someone unless they also have a noticeable flaw.
I also have difficulty in finding ANYONE beautiful unless I know at least a bit about their personality.
As far as whether I think I'm good looking or ugly...that's a determination for others to make, and not me. It doesn't matter to me how I think I look. It matters to me how I feel inside about myself.
NNadir
(34,448 posts)True Dough
(19,899 posts)you feel all mushy inside.
Warm and mushy.
LuckyCharms
(18,737 posts)You know exactly how I feel inside.
Or was I just another one night stand for you?
Just another play thing?
True Dough
(19,899 posts)I think there's hope for us, Lucky. I want another side of mushy!
LuckyCharms
(18,737 posts)I had to think quick, and tell her they were mine.
She said "they can't be, the pouch in the front is way too big".
True Dough
(19,899 posts)I carry my mechanical pen in my boxers. Sorry to disappoint her!
LuckyCharms
(18,737 posts)that I won this round!
True Dough
(19,899 posts)in my heart and in my soul!
LuckyCharms
(18,737 posts)I think that's a compliment.
Maybe.
Kali
(55,664 posts)fat, and female. apparently I am neither ugly nor attractive, just invisible. which ain't all bad
NNadir
(34,448 posts)...or less, and I recall it with some mixture of joy and grief.
One thing that happened was that I changed my musical tastes, became a very good guitarist - which I no longer am, having stopped playing in part because I'm not invisible anymore and couldn't be if I wanted to - learned a lot about writing, and basically began to understand myself and made my first steps toward choosing a profession I would come to love.
On the other side, I was lonely, a little depressed at times, but at the end of the day, it made me stronger, the invisibility.
Kali
(55,664 posts)occasionally I have to get loud to be heard when I feel the need. I have never really felt lonely - perhaps slightly in early adulthood but have no real problem spending time and thought with myself. more people should learn to feel comfortable alone (especially by turning off the damn television).
NNadir
(34,448 posts)...called "beautiful things." This involved trips to museums, concerts, hikes in the wilderness, listening to and experimenting with new music, playing the guitar and singing to myself, reading, then reading, and then reading some more, skiing alone, thinking, writing.
I think my future wife would have had nothing to do with me were I not doing these things, because as we became friends, well before we were lovers, she tagged along for my formerly private adventures, and grew to like me, to feel better when we together.
I have a sister-in-law who never married, and who had fairly miserable relationships with men, who I have tried to counsel in these 40 years I've known her, since she was an adolescent, and through her adult life. She is in her 50s and obsessed with getting married; in her desperation, she ends up with some real losers.
I told her about doing beautiful things, but regrettably, she doesn't understand that she should do this for herself, but thinks it's a way to fall in love. I guess I told the story incorrectly. She doesn't get it, and I can't make her understand it. It wasn't about meeting and befriending my future wife, although that was the outcome. It was about seeing the beauty in the world for oneself. If one does that, life is worth living, with or without other people in it.
Good for you; you have peace and deserve it, I'm sure.
True Dough
(19,899 posts)Somehow I managed to attract a much better looking spouse. Don't ask me how that happened, but it did. You can all attest to my lack of charm, so it's a real mystery.
LuckyCharms
(18,737 posts)teeth go *Bing* and sparkle when you smile, like those handsome guys in movies.
True Dough
(19,899 posts)Google than a Bing guy, to be honest!
dweller
(24,733 posts)I just had a picture in my mind of your teeth going all googly
🤪
✌🏻
the cut of your jib!
dweller
(24,733 posts)More like such
✌🏻
brush
(57,058 posts)and lonely, I posted some photos on an online dating site and got several responses and positive comments.
It surprised me.
NNadir
(34,448 posts)I had no idea how popular he was to become; lots of women pursued him.
Of course, he did what he didn't do, except on special occasions when my mother was alive, which was to wear his dentures, which were fairly uncomfortable.
He was a handsome young man, but when he aged, well, not so much.
He met ultimately, and married, a marvelous woman, who, although I was in my twenties when I served as his best man, I regarded as my stepmother. I called her "Mom," not out disrespect to my real mother, who I also loved, but because she loved my father so much, and by extension, me, as if I were one of her own 5 sons. (She's still alive, in her 90's, and when I can, I go to see her. My father's been dead for over 30 years.) After he married my stepmother, of course, the dentures were mostly in a drawer, except on special occasions.
Good for you to be dating. May you love again.
(I told my wife that when I kick off, she should try to pick up men at my funeral; she doesn't like it, but it's what I think.)
Tikki
(14,783 posts)I am a happy Senior lady. Maybe it all works together.
Tikki
NNadir
(34,448 posts)Archae
(46,736 posts)NNadir
(34,448 posts)...once total a Volkswagen with my bicycle and my body, but it didn't mess up my face - other accidents did that - but it did leave a huge scar on the back of my head, which emerged after I went bald. No one says anything about it though.
Congrats on your survival.
Boomerproud
(8,345 posts)UTUSN
(72,218 posts)with the simultaneous strongly put-down culture. So I never developed the vanity, never primped or thought full-of-self. Yet have somehow encountered "somes" who thought I was self-smitten, me who never lingered on a mirror. I went blank when a woman supervisor said, "I bet you look in the mirror all the time." Huh? And, truly, I've never thought shit about myself, and now by whatever porn standards I'm nowhere there. Yet, am on the fringe of whatever.
I'll say this, have seen many masculines being *very* self-absorbed.
NNadir
(34,448 posts)..."just friends," where she said that she felt that men were mostly interested in her because, as she put it, "they just want to lay me."
Maybe she was testing me to see what I'd say; it was certainly a little more than awkward. That's probably why, decades later, I still remember that conversation.
I confess that at the very beginning, like many other men, I was drawn to her by the fact that she was very sexy, very good looking. Of course, like other men, I made a point of talking to women like that, but usually the conversation didn't last all that long, nor did any friendship develop. It's certainly the case that no woman would date me because I was handsome. I certainly wasn't a male case of "eye candy."
With her, it was very different; after getting past her looks, I could immediately see what a fine, intelligent, and friendly person she was. I very much enjoyed being with her as a friend, and still do, even if we are now "more than friends." I've never had such a wonderful friendship and never will again.
I'll say this: One of the things that led me to stay interested in my future wife was her complete lack of vanity.
She kind of felt that her looks were more of a problem than a benefit. She certainly had to work out of some very difficult situations with men.
Reflecting on on what first drew me to her, I was pretty shallow when I met her, but apparently we got past it; she taught me to grow up.
Of course, people assumed she was vain, as they may do of you, but it sounds like you know how to shrug it off and simply be who you are, which is a very good thing.
quaint
(3,446 posts)Raised Maronite Catholic and fundamentalist Presbyterian making me the guiltiest child ever.
sakabatou
(42,911 posts)Dem4life1234
(839 posts)I have never been into the extremely gorgeous pretty boys, I like them slightly above average with maybe a crooked teeth or two.
If they are average and have charm, I'm am putty in their hands.
Charisma>>>>good looks anyday!
NNadir
(34,448 posts)Niagara
(9,322 posts)I have some really nice photos of myself but these photo's are older they do not reveal my current age.
It seems like today, I attempt to take a photo and it looks nothing like what I see in the mirror. The photos are terrible.
I'm not photogenic at all. I look much better in person. I had a random lady back in July tell me that I could be a model. She specifically stated that she wasn't hitting on me but for a moment I thought she might have been smoking crack-cocaine. I gave her a hug anyway.
NNadir
(34,448 posts)My wife would kill me if I posted a picture of either of us on line, but if that's you, well, I'm jealous.
(I know the movie; which was fun.)
No one has ever accused me of not having a sense of humor!
LuckyCharms
(18,737 posts)Goatguy
(8 posts)On my inner Santa. White beard the works. Lol
OldBaldy1701E
(6,148 posts)NNadir
(34,448 posts)He sees what he sees, and what he sees is who you are, and that, my friend, is all he needs to see.