Keep trying. Something will pop. It's a numbers game!

my workplace is so toxic, I'm going onto ssdi if I ever get approved due to the stress.
Toxic workplace s are soul crushing.

I have no words of wisdom. You're trying. I'm hoping for you to finally have a better place of employment.

Peace.

I retired a full 3 years ahead of my plan, just to get away from one. ALL of this grief was created by a exactly what you mentioned - a manipulative narcissist. This particular narcissist was so twisted, she double down on her harassment, towards me, knowing I was dealing with multiple terminal illnesses in my family.

I will probably never find out how her live goes, and deeply wish I could erase all memories of her. She was pretty much the vilest individual I've ever met, and I encountered some real doozies while I was in the Navy.

a message board allows. (Which is not nearly enough)
We are here for any venting you need to make!
So continue to let it out and continue to believe in yourself. You have great value. And you are stronger than you think!

Believe that.

Offer you a giant virtual ((((((((HUG)))))))))

You are and have proven you are strong and capable …

Small anecdote … I prayed for strength … and I was tested … showing how strong I was and could be ….

Then … I had an epiphany and prayed for the ability to enjoy my days …

Things changed and my joy increased …

I used to work at such a place, with one toxic asshole who made everyone miserable. I stood up to him a couple times and then he started targeting me. I kept detailed notes of his abuse against me (dates, times, his words) and saved all his nasty emails. I then went to my supervisor, who then went with me to HR. I had only been with this company for about 6 months.

As it turns out, he had been a real problem for years, well before I started there. He had chased off a whole bunch of really good staff members who left the firm because of him. I didn’t know this and was prepared to be fired or to leave on my own. The company had been looking for a reason to get rid of him. Anyway, he was allowed to resign and ‘seek another opportunity elsewhere.’

Don’t give up hope on getting rid of your manipulative narcissist. If you’re having problems with this jerk, there’s a high probability that others are too.

We're all scratching our heads trying to figure out how the CEO doesn't see it too. Oh right, that highly manipulative part! Many of us have brought it to his attention, but he's one of those poor leaders who wants to believe everything is going swimmingly and shoots the messenger rather than acknowledge serious problems.

They say that who you know matters more than what you know. Knowing a lot of people hasn't exactly helped me, but maybe your network/connections could be more helpful?

My boss is hyper-plugged in to the business community around here. I start tugging on my network strings he will find out sooner rather than later.

I have no idea about pay, but I hope you find something you like, not just have to tolerate.