Addiction & Recovery

Taverner

(55,476 posts) Sat Jun 22, 2013, 03:15 PM Jun 2013

In my waking up to sobriety, I find myself angrier and angrier

Not at my loved ones, or even other people.

But I find myself ANGRIER and ANGRIER at the corporations who enslave us, the government who is their lapdog, and the absolute loss of hope we as Americans find ourselves in.

We were promised hope in 2008. Like a good drunk drone, I believed it. Hell, even sober people beleived it so I don't think it was just the alcohol that gave it to me.

Now I look around, with sober and clearer eyes, and see we were given a President who, yes, may embody hope, but he's President of a rotten system by which no change can occur.

It is not clear when he realized this, nor does it really matter. He has given up, and is just counting down the days for him to leave and then join the Carlyle Group like those before him.

The system IS rotten.

I can see this now.

My drinking, drugs and other psychoactive agents obscured this reality from me, or at least made it seem less dire.

But now that I can see - it's like waking up while the Titanic is sinking, and the lifeboats are all taken.

What is to be done?

Certainly not more avoidance and denial.

Fuck that.

I'm here to fight.

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In my waking up to sobriety, I find myself angrier and angrier (Original Post) Taverner Jun 2013 OP

I wish you had been able to wake up to more MuseRider Jun 2013 #1

It would have been nice to wake up on V-J day, but alas, you don't get to choose these things Taverner Jun 2013 #2

That they do MuseRider Jun 2013 #3

Then we all have an enormous undertaking on our hands Taverner Jun 2013 #4

100% in agreement MuseRider Jun 2013 #5

Reality really screws with serenity in recovery. dixiegrrrrl Jun 2013 #6

Kinda the reverse of Dino's quote Taverner Jun 2013 #8

I wish I could argue with you, but I Ilsa Jun 2013 #7

i can never get positive results from negative action/emotions NMDemDist2 Jun 2013 #9

MuseRider

(34,368 posts)

1. I wish you had been able to wake up to more

Reply to Taverner (Original post)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 03:41 PM

Jun 2013

tranquil circumstances.

I have been through this several times with several people. You have no idea how much respect I have for those who go through this process. Hang on.

Nothing really to add, just wanted to express my support.

Taverner

(55,476 posts)

2. It would have been nice to wake up on V-J day, but alas, you don't get to choose these things

Reply to MuseRider (Reply #1)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 03:48 PM

Jun 2013

They choose you

MuseRider

(34,368 posts)

3. That they do

Reply to Taverner (Reply #2)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 03:53 PM

Jun 2013

and this is ours to deal with.

Taverner

(55,476 posts)

4. Then we all have an enormous undertaking on our hands

Reply to MuseRider (Reply #3)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 03:57 PM

Jun 2013

I am not sure what needs to be done

But I know what needs to be stopped: Corporations

MuseRider

(34,368 posts)

5. 100% in agreement

Reply to Taverner (Reply #4)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 04:07 PM

Jun 2013

and along with them any elected official who thinks this is OK.

dixiegrrrrl

(60,011 posts)

6. Reality really screws with serenity in recovery.

Reply to Taverner (Reply #4)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 04:14 PM

Jun 2013

FWIW....The path of addiction could have led you to NOT wake up, in so many ways.

You know the old sobriety joke:" This is the best I'm gonna feel all day...shit"

Taverner

(55,476 posts)

8. Kinda the reverse of Dino's quote

Reply to dixiegrrrrl (Reply #6)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 04:53 PM

Jun 2013

"I really feel sorry for teetotalers - they wake up and that's the best they are going to feel all day!"

Ilsa

(62,235 posts)

7. I wish I could argue with you, but I

Reply to Taverner (Original post)

Sat Jun 22, 2013, 04:44 PM

Jun 2013

think you nailed it in so many ways.

I've signed on to a number of Internet groups with regular (seems like almost daily) email petitions for various issues, like protecting outer environment, our democracy, etc, but I feel like it's a waste. Time will tell whether we are making any difference in our petitions and how we spend our money. I don't feel very hopeful right now.

Hang in there -- you are not alone.

NMDemDist2

(49,314 posts)

9. i can never get positive results from negative action/emotions

Reply to Taverner (Original post)

Tue Jun 25, 2013, 07:38 PM

Jun 2013

i strive to see what i can add to the world. i keep my eye close to my life and actions.

i try to change what's right in front of me, i try to make my immediate surroundings better.

as is the micro, so goes the macro, so i try to make my micro universe the best i can.

when i focus on what's good in my life, the world's big troubles seem easier to take.

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