Addiction & Recovery

Taverner

(55,476 posts) Fri Jul 12, 2013, 05:38 PM Jul 2013

I've been (mostly) good this week

Finally tapering off the Xanax and can't wait to be off that. That stuff makes me feel like shit.

But if you put a bottle of Johnnie Walker Black in front of me, damn skippy I would drink that.

It's a very good thing I don't have one.

But it's scary - it's a feeling of powerlessness.

All I can do is avoid it at this time.

If you want to lose weight, don't buy oreos

If you want to stop drinking, don't buy booze

So that in moments like these, my laziness and procrastination can actually be assets for a change

Serenity to all

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I've been (mostly) good this week (Original Post) Taverner Jul 2013 OP

Accepting that feeling of powerlessness was a bingo moment for me in my quit applegrove Jul 2013 #1

I hand my power to science. They'll find a cure if anyone can. Taverner Jul 2013 #2

Reminds me of a joke... Electric Monk Jul 2013 #4

LOL Taverner Jul 2013 #5

It works best if you grind up 5 to 10 pills and snort it n/t progree Aug 2013 #6

The feeling of powerlessness, and yet Ilsa Jul 2013 #3

applegrove

(123,111 posts)

1. Accepting that feeling of powerlessness was a bingo moment for me in my quit

Reply to Taverner (Original post)

Fri Jul 12, 2013, 05:43 PM

Jul 2013

of alcohol. I accepted that I had no will when it came to any type of alcohol. And I gave up the idea that I could ever have a sip. I just gave up. Handed the power over to my ancestors and nature. You may be headed for a breakthrough tonight my friend. It does feel good to be quit. It really does.

Taverner

(55,476 posts)

2. I hand my power to science. They'll find a cure if anyone can.

Reply to applegrove (Reply #1)

Fri Jul 12, 2013, 05:48 PM

Jul 2013

The question is do we want a cure?

Imagine you could take a pill that would take any current and future cravings for ETOH (chem symbol for alcohol)

Would you take it?

Our first answer would be yes, but then there's that little voice in the back of our head. The one that came from the addiction that would scream "no!"

No bones about it, being drunk was fun. Being completely shnockered and passing out at the keyboard was FUN.

I was an "I drink alone" type

It killed the self doubt and self loathing

It also killed ME

And if you look at what ETOH does on a molecular level to your body, you'd probably never touch it in the first place. It literally short circuits the neurons in your brain. High by brute force.

But yeah, I want that pill

Electric Monk

(13,869 posts)

4. Reminds me of a joke...

Reply to Taverner (Reply #2)

Sat Jul 13, 2013, 02:31 PM

Jul 2013

A medical researcher comes running into an AA convention, holding a bottle of pills: "We've discovered the cure for alcoholism!" he shouts. "Just take one of these pills and your troubles will be over!" A voice from the back asks "What happens if I take two?"

p.106 of UNDRUNK: A Skeptic's Guide to AA - A.J.Adams