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Last edited Thu Feb 7, 2019, 04:32 PM - Edit history (3)
After 11 long years, today is my last dose of methadone.
I'm so excited and proud and nervous. It's only a small 2.5 mg. drop to nothing(!), my very last dose of a long, gradual tapering. I'm sure I'll feel a little crappy for a week or so, just like with every other incremental decrease ... it just feels so weird that I'll be completely done. FINALLY!!
Methadone absolutely saved my life, I have zero doubts about that. I just can't believe it's been 11 goddamn years.
Edit:
Thank you all so much! I certainly wasn't expecting this large of a response!
(and I didn't realize the post would show up outside of the Addiction section, lol!)
It's overwhelming to have so much support. I truly appreciate all the kind words, thoughts, and encouragement. It means a lot to me, especially today. Whenever I'm feeling a little rough on this last taper, I'm going to come back here to reread all these lovely comments.
Thank you.
Medication assisted treatment WORKS! I cannot wait until the stigma and misinformation surrounding it are gone and it's finally easy for anyone who wants help to get it, that day.
Squinch
(53,676 posts)Lefta Dissenter
(6,661 posts)Congratulations!
Dead_Parrot
(14,478 posts)Scarsdale
(9,426 posts)You stuck with it, and it worked. So happy for you. Keep up the good work, it is worth it.
bluecollar2
(3,622 posts)knightmaar
(748 posts)That's incredible determination, seeing that all the way through.
Congrats.
happybird
(5,303 posts)Some can do it much faster, but I needed the long road. It took me 5 or 6 years on a consistent, high dose (a blocking dose) to lose the desire to use heroin and to get my life sorted out. After that, I tapered down by about half and then stopped to re-stabilize at the lower dose for a couple years. Did that process twice, and have been on 20 mg. for the last 2-3 years. I finally bit the bullet in August and began my final charge. The last 20 mg. have been the hardest- which has been super annoying because it's such a (relatively) piddly amount. I've definitely felt each little decrease this time.
PWPippinesq
(195 posts)You persevered and won.
FailureToCommunicate
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Freddie
(9,771 posts)My son is a recovering heroin addict. 3 years clean this month. Its good to hear about people who have stuck with it for a long time!
Soxfan58
(3,479 posts)You should be very proud!
safeinOhio
(34,624 posts)well worth it.
SaveOurDemocracy
(4,473 posts)My son struggled with addiction for 10 years. Actually, the whole family struggled.
Clean and sober 3+ years and loving life.
Good luck, stick with it.
handmade34
(23,063 posts)Lonestarblue
(12,141 posts)ProfessorPlum
(11,402 posts)be tender with yourself. you've been through a lot.
Callalily
(15,032 posts)volstork
(5,600 posts)Well done and best of luck each day going forward!
deek
(3,414 posts)you must be so proud
dlk
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Moostache
(10,218 posts)Best wishes for a continued daily victory for you.
ET Awful
(24,776 posts)Good job! Keep it up and if you get confused, listen to the music play.
FakeNoose
(36,376 posts)We're all rooting for you Happybird!
Ponietz
(3,330 posts)...well done, amigo.
KY_EnviroGuy
(14,633 posts)From a friend in recovery.....a lifetime journey!.........
thinkingagain
(1,119 posts)Have the most beautiful day!
lillypaddle
(9,605 posts)What a long, hard row it has been for you.
vlyons
(10,252 posts)So is enthusiastic perseverance a virtue. So congratulations. Your long and persistent struggle with this difficulty demonstrates that you are a virtuous person. Go celebrate!
chia
(2,434 posts)May the wind be at your back and the sun on your face as you take your next steps on this journey of life.
panader0
(25,816 posts)You should be proud.
TygrBright
(20,987 posts)Sometimes it can hit you like a ton of bricks with a delay. Take it ONE day at a time and you KNOW you can do this!
appreciatively,
Bright
Fatemah2774
(245 posts)Of joy for you. I'm battling addiction too and have an appointment today.
May I have a similar success as you and others who have posted.
happybird
(5,303 posts)and sending positive vibes. Deciding to make a change and making the first appointment is such an enormous, scary step. Be proud of yourself, it's a big deal! Well done! Once you and the doc get your correct dosage figured out and you stabilize, it's like the world reopens to you. You get your life back. Day by day, it will get little better- you just have to hang in there until they get your dosage right. It's so worth it, I promise.
You can do it!
Blue Owl
(55,072 posts)BigmanPigman
(52,509 posts)That is how Tony Bourdain was able to stop permanently.
rurallib
(63,365 posts)I have always wondered what happens to people on such programs - how long it takes, how do they feel. And now I know.
Here's to a long and happy life for you!
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Dem2theMax
(10,539 posts)I can't even comprehend having to do that for 11 years, but you did it! You have every reason to be extremely proud of yourself.
chowder66
(10,042 posts)jls4561
(1,834 posts)lunatica
(53,410 posts)Honeycombe8
(37,648 posts)we will understand. If it's someone else you cuss out.
Congratulations for getting that monkey off your back. I can only imagine how tough that was, and will be, now. But I bet your life is a lot better these days.
Daddy J
(16 posts)People say "I wish you the best," "Good luck!", and other similar things on such an occasion. I want to express these sentiments for you and your accomplishment, too, but I'm pretty sure your quitting didn't depend on luck or fate or wishes. I bet it took a lot of courage, determination, tries, doubts, self-reflection, and help from others to get to this point. I've quit addictions (many times each), too. It sure ain't easy. I salute you!
littlemissmartypants
(26,327 posts)So happy that you made it to the other side! Well done!
I take an extended release opioid twice a day and hope that if I can no longer get it, for whatever reason, my physician will compassionately wean me off the drug. It has changed my life and I am miserable without pain management. But the prospect of not having it is frightening.
All the best to you!
sellitman
(11,691 posts)It goes to show people that anything can be accomplished if you really try hard. Welcome to DU. I hope we hear more of your accomplishments in the future.
akraven
(1,975 posts)A very good friend also went through this - so I know peripherally how hard it is. WAY TO GO!!!
yonder
(10,021 posts)Karadeniz
(23,675 posts)Health plans need to get real. The only experience I have of the methadone treatment was the streetcat named Bob book...the author's treatments were, I'm sure, covered by British natonal health. His description is vivid. If you haven't read it, it's good...going to be a movie!
Fla Dem
(26,140 posts)stevil
(1,538 posts)Generic Brad
(14,374 posts)So glad you have healed. Youve earned your restored health.
proud patriot
(101,281 posts)I've lost too many friends to this , am and so proud of you .. you have no idea <3
RainCaster
(11,832 posts)Good for you happy bird! May you remain proudly sober for the rest of your life.
Nitram
(24,870 posts)Blue_playwright
(1,577 posts)Nt
Stonepounder
(4,033 posts)Give yourself a really BIG pat on the back!
And for damn sure, you now know that we all are here for you.