I think, though, many of us have F2F meetings we go to and I personally have a recovery board that is specific to my own situation where I spend a good deal of time. They have nightly online meetings so I end up there a lot.

I really do think this place can grow, though, because we are being kind to one another and supportive and that's what coheres a place like this. As I'm sure you know, the rest of DU can be a pretty rough and tumble place and not always safe to be open. As well, I suspect and hope we have lurkers, people who may not be ready to tell their story but if they are able to walk away with anything that helps, it's all good, right?

One of the groups I go to has an opening line that says something like, you may not like all of us but with time you will come to love us just as we love you. I kind of thought that was dorky, but I've noticed that when I see one of you guys out in the bigger DU, I'm predisposed to care about you and listen without being snarky or combative.

But then, I find my snark level overall has gone way down. I used to love to come to DU and be witty, snarky, maybe even mean sometimes. I don't have it in me to do that these days.

What is going on, changed?

I have a big enough fight on my hands getting out of this giant hole I dug. And I guess I just feel less enjoyment in being the queen of snark. It was a way for me to offload a huge amount of anger I wasn't looking at and now that I'm looking at my stuff, it just feels cleaner to do the work than to blow off steam in GD.

I'm afraid that it isn't all good. Never will be. I don't want to fight any more, with any one. Thanks for helping me, and others. I can barely think or write tonight,,,, that tired. Good stuff though.

If it were all good, none of us would be here, would we?

Usually comes out no matter how bad the bad gets...Each and every one here is a large help to me and most likely to each other....sometimes I get complacent with my program, hard not to sometimes, but stopping in here and interacting some with others in recovery regardless of at what stage and how long or short always helps.

Thank all of you

I haven't been here much, but I plan to stay, as long as my computer doesn't break again. Good fortune to you. I enjoyed this tonight. Good night, thanks to all of you.

And I'm thankful for Du, and the people I'm getting to know here. Crazy things happening all over. Part of the reason I feel this way... "It's not all personal" Just stuff!