Addiction & Recovery

bif

(23,973 posts) Sun Mar 22, 2020, 10:25 AM Mar 2020

Well, it's been one rough weekend.

Friday night wasn't too bad. I kept thinking about drinking but ended up hopping in bed and watched a comedy while having a bowl of ice cream. All yesterday afternoon, I kept anticipating a lousy night. It was a pleasant evening eating dinner in front of the fire, but I kept thinking about how nice it would be to have a few glasses of wine. I finally gave up and went to bed at 9:00. It wasn't so much feeling sorry for myself, just that if I was sleeping, I wouldn't have to think about drinking. In a lot of ways, I really look forward to Mondays.

I've been sober for about a year and a half. And it is getting better. But I have these occasional shitty weekends. And not being able to go out to a movie or hear live music, certainly doesn't help.

Thanks for listening!

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Well, it's been one rough weekend. (Original Post) bif Mar 2020 OP

One hour at a time. You got this. pnwest Mar 2020 #1

Under the circumstances, that was kind of a good weekend Jarqui Mar 2020 #2

It would kill me if I thought all my buddies were out at the bar pounding the beers. brewens Mar 2020 #3

Me as well irisblue Mar 2020 #4

8 years here Blues Heron Mar 2020 #5

Hang in there and feel free to vent anytime. fleur-de-lisa Mar 2020 #6

Sounds like a win to me JDC Mar 2020 #7

Call Timewas Mar 2020 #8

We don't have sponsors in SMART Recovery bif Mar 2020 #11

I have never heard of that Timewas Mar 2020 #12

Just an FYI bif Mar 2020 #13

Since I started AA Timewas Mar 2020 #14

It does get better, it does get easier, but you have the only rough part in hand: you're aware ... marble falls Mar 2020 #9

Good luck and good wishes.. mountain grammy Mar 2020 #10

pnwest

(3,294 posts)

1. One hour at a time. You got this.

Reply to bif (Original post)

Sun Mar 22, 2020, 10:37 AM

Mar 2020

Good on ya, keep it up!

Jarqui

(10,487 posts)

2. Under the circumstances, that was kind of a good weekend

Reply to bif (Original post)

Sun Mar 22, 2020, 10:37 AM

Mar 2020

in certain respects.

You should be proud of yourself.

Hang in there!

brewens

(15,359 posts)

3. It would kill me if I thought all my buddies were out at the bar pounding the beers.

Reply to bif (Original post)

Sun Mar 22, 2020, 10:39 AM

Mar 2020

Most of us are too old to drink competitively these days or had to give it up. I can't afford to drink anyway, so that helps.

irisblue

(34,252 posts)

4. Me as well

Reply to bif (Original post)

Sun Mar 22, 2020, 10:52 AM

Mar 2020

I spent some time thinking how I could get my chemical of choice.

I am aware that using soothes/soothed my anxiety. Well, gee, I'm feeling pretty anxious these days.

Hugs my brother

Blues Heron

(6,130 posts)

5. 8 years here

Reply to bif (Original post)

Sun Mar 22, 2020, 11:25 AM

Mar 2020

One thing with booze - it wears off so fast you have to keep dosing to keep the buzz going. So your missing out on a few 1 hour feelgood sessions - u can do that! Here's what you're also missing:

Hangovers
Sleep disruptions
Stomach issues
Immune system supression
Emotional rollercoasters
Wobbly balance

Boozin's an Illusion! Hang in there Bif!