you had a post awhile back....so how are you dealing? kindly

For now the anxiety has passed. I'm doing some things that I know will help. I have the tools, just don't use them some times. I appreciate your reply irisblue.

Good to hear that you are doing ok now, sometimes we slip into the old habits and get a little complacent about our programs, we need to remember that complacency can kill you...

I'm glad that you took an interest in me.... thx. I have alot of good things, just depressed I think. I have been depressed before, but this seeeeeeeeeemes different. I was never in love before, and deppressed at the same time. But now I am. Have a good night.

controlling my negativity, anger, frustration. I was barking orders at both of my sig others, who were, bless their hearts, trying their best. I've got an amends or two racked up for this last week. And being so sick, I often slept right through the online meetings. No, not often, every damned day. And I really, really could have used meetings, lots of meetings. Lots of meetings and less pity party. Nobody, myself included, has fun at my pity parties.

*Non-flu means that a very diligent nurse shoved cotton swabs way up in my nose (I'm a nurse and I didn't know cotton swabs could reach that far) and the test came up negative for the flu - I've still gotten to experience all of the flu symptoms. I highly recommend the diagnostic procedure to anyone who enjoys intense pain.

I never heard that term in CoDA but in Nar Anon and Al Anon, I hear people use the term all the time. My point of view is that my qualifier (even if I have one that matches the definition) is that my butt is sitting in that seat in that meeting.

I guess that's why, as my issues directly surrounding the addict begin to abate, I see so much of my behavior that has become unhealthy and I'm starting to look back to CoDA, because I don't feel like having every share I share, start with how I'm coping with the addict. I'm coping and healing from that trauma, but it uncovered a whole nest of unhealthy behaviors that retook up residence when I decided to take over the driving of my own life, sans higher power. It took the addict for me to finally drive the car off the cliff, but I was headed there, albeit slower and more clandestine.