So sad you are having such a shitty time.

I'm not too sure what "whack" is, but when I run low, taking a walk, especially before lunch or supper, seems to help me get the groove back. Some of it may be posture..... But a probiotic might help,too.

I realize that they're probably not meeting in person now, but there are other options. That's one way to get the support you need and ideas from others who have been where you are now.

I'm in AA (11 years), but I started out also going to Alanon and OA with my sponsor. She had an overeating issue and I had just the opposite problem, when I drank, I ate nothing which got to be dangerous. I really liked the others and it helped to get suggestions and hear how they handled things.

I'm much more familiar with AA, but they have Zoom meetings now that in-person meetings are prohibited. I have a friend who's very active in OA and she listens to meetings over the phone most mornings. And those are ways you could quietly check things out to see if it might be helpful for you.

Don't get discouraged, we all have setbacks. If we could access DU.2, I posted a thread here saying how discouraged I was. But I didn't give up and you shouldn't either...

You are an awesome artist and a good person. I wish you weren’t going through hard times. Just wish I could make you a cup of tea and have you over for a chat or a painting session, and a hug.

I am still here. Nice people, and many nice meetings. We understand. Hang in there, please don't
give up.... no matter what. Our higher power wants us... to not give up. It is that simple.......
....and we all have..."wobbly days & weeks"....just...please ...don't give up!!