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Well, the battle continues. I have not remained perfect. Not anywhere near I was last October when I went to rehab. Been a tough few weeks, MrsK has been very quiet and withdrawn and angry. The other day I was helping neighbors out and his wife says to me LilBit( my handicapped daughter) and your cat are outside. V I ran over, expecting the worse, but Mrs sitting at computer totally zoned out. I asked if she was alright and did she know where LilBit was she answered no why? I told her where she was. 15 ft away from where your sitting but outside, cat is gone, didnt you hear the door open? Blank stare returned. Yesterday Mrs was so angry. Shaking angry, snapping at me , LilBit,cat, and arguing with people on FB. I asked her whats wrong? She just looked at me and started crying and said. I dont know, help me.
So no sleep last night. Hard for me to tell her I dont what do , except make a phone call most of us here had to make.
Im so proud of her today! I had a few drinks these past few weeks. I failed all of us. Out of last 215 days I drank on 6 days within last 3weeks. Im not perfect I failed. But for first time since I made my call for help last Oct12,, I have some real hope. I think Im gonna get my most important team mate back.
Koz
alwaysinasnit
(5,263 posts)SheltieLover
(59,723 posts)Good thoughts to you & yours!
kozar
(2,896 posts)I could share some Fla stories with ya friend!! Hoping you are well. I was very too happy here reading the weather reports in Tn!!! Lol
Koz
SheltieLover
(59,723 posts)Got both Pfizers though. They are begging people to get vaccinated here.
Did you, Mrs. & daughter get vaxes?
kozar
(2,896 posts)I got first, they finally opened up for LilBits first. She scheduled this week.
Koz
SheltieLover
(59,723 posts)mountain grammy
(27,313 posts)but having hope, that's a very good thing, sometimes the only thing.
kozar
(2,896 posts)Bristlecone
(10,494 posts)My dad quit drinking 30+ years ago and his advice to me was don't ever give up.
It's not easy, and you probably beat yourself up more than anyone else would.
I tried to quit so many times I lost count. I ended up getting help and have stayed sober since (10 years at the end of '21 if I keep it up).
I hope best for you.
Karadeniz
(23,442 posts)Stuart G
(38,726 posts)...One of the worst things in life, are thoughts "it should be easy"................
.....It ain't easy, if it were easy..........it would be ....."EASY".........
ONE MORE TIME....."It ain't easy"
....I remember attending a competition where I sat in the stands and watched the runners run a ....
...."Marathon"...and it looked so easy...Afterwards, I tried to run a ..."mile" ..& I couldn't get even to
a city block or about 600 feet without running out of breath..I didn't realize how difficult that would
be..
...Try again...It ain't easy...but don't give up hope... Often times "changing behavior" is the hardest thing we ever do.
Stuart G
(38,726 posts)...I noticed that there is a delete key on the computer.....(something called a back space, is that correct?)
When I hit the ...back space key...I delete the letter or the word..There are lots of other ways to
delete stuff on a computer...even something called...........spell check...............yes, I use that one
very often......