so true my friend

i'm just glad i never got a DUI with the draconian penalties they have today.

There are many times when I think in a way that was impossible before.
That clarity of thought is a gift way beyond what I ever expected.

clearer, more color and positive, and remembered
better speech, less hesitating, forgeting, unclarities

It would have gotten really bad......

But I wish the internet had been around, I think I would have been helped with some actual access to information I wasn't getting in the situation I was in, with really bad psychiatric care and no information regarding treatment beyond an episode I saw on Opra one time.

When I had to remove my addicted Ex, I had to defriend so many people. And that place is so middle school on a good day. Drunk Facebooking. Ouch.

I wonder if people have started Facebooking their amends.

Even better, can I do my fifth step on Facebook? (kidding - I would rather die than do that. Now Twitter......)

I can identify with the blackout phone calls (cringe).

Just grateful to be alive and sober.

I have a few nephews who were not around when I was drinking so I am glad they did not have to witness what others family members had to witness.....

I pretty much stayed drunk for my whole 20's... got one dwi in 74 in Idaho.. on one inventory, i figured that i must have driven drunk over a thousand times.. in fact used to drive home using right hand turns if possible, so i didnt have to cross traffic.. would joke in the watering holes that driving home was an "art form"

i remember waking up in the middle of the night, with the stark terror that someday i would be in prison, for a crime i didn't remember.. i attended my first meeting shorly thereafter, and have been sober every scince.. that has been over 30 years ago..

years ago in my youth i was a homebrewer, (never supply issues).. occasionaly i wonder what some microbrewerys have done with the art.. but this certainly has not proved an obssesion.. i am now living free of both alcohol and tobacco, thanks to folks like Bill and Bob, and im sure many of you!!

You remember that old commercial from coke? I'd like to buy the world a hit of ecstasy, especially world leaders before important arms summits.

But, not to worry, the party girls ruined ecstasy. There isn't any out there to tempt you. And it wreaked havoc on one's body. Really.

But on the subject, there's actually something new from the last time I was in recovery (CoDA). Cell phones and phone trees. Yup. If I have a freak out at 2am, I have a list of people who will get out of bed to listen to me rant. And now that I think of it, that is so, well, codependent. Okay, now I've amused myself.

Of course, I'm such an idiot with my so called smart phone, it's only a matter of time before I pocket dial one of these fine folks. I don't even want to imagine that conversation. LOL Um, God Grant me the wisdom not to do that!

But for sure ,
Better DU posts!