But for some reason it does lately. It doesn't make me want to drink, it just appalls me. Our minds sure work in mysterious ways.

It's a lot easier these days. I almost never think about drinking. I hit a point right around the 5-year mark where it got noticeably easier.

Our attitudes about drinking are different than 40 years ago, when drinking and smoking were manly attributes to be admired. I am reminded of this because there was a series of Matt Helm detective movies with Dean Martin swilling booze and puffing cigarettes. And looking silly doing it. Nowadays, alcoholism is something the protagonist must fight and overcome.

Other people drinking doesn't bother me at all. I have no urges to go back to that, because my relationship with alcohol was so different than everyone else's.

We are the different ones, we cannot drink socially, That is what it comes down to, they are "normal" society and having a drink now and then is "normal" for them and in most movies(and in real life)this is a socially acceptable "norm". On the other hand getting "hammered" as you put it is not anything at all "normal" in society.

Just not for us.If it causes you to want to join them then turn it off,do not allow it to jeopardize you program.