We're building to the season finale. Will he or won't he? Trump has the world on the edge of its seats. The ultimate narcissists coda.

Apartment behind a locked door.

Might have to buy a naganata.

Everyone in this county knows my complex is low income,and "scary poor and black people" live here .

If the racist rethugs and biker assholes out here got a hair up their ass and decided to hurt people, this is one of the places they'd want to destroy.

I feel like I got a target on my head being transgender and poor.

I have gotten calls from strangers insulting me for being trans and demanding
I vote trump. Someone knows who I am. Someone hateful.

Told the cops and they didn't care told me they couldn't do anything about it and don't worry. Fuckers.

Who knows what the right-wing crazies out here in this too red county would do if they don't get their way. Fucking narcissists.

Back muscles are tense, everyone around me can see I'm on that rage edge thing, took part of a bottle of whiskey to help me sleep last night (wife's idea and it worked great)... I'm normally laid back and easy going... getting me to wish death upon people means they deserve it.
I'm with ya, death to them all. All thrown in a nameless, unmarked mass grave in the middle of no where... I can't say more or the secret service would be called....

... which makes me a little less anxious.

Her work has become all covid, all the time.

My anxiety level went up every time I turned the news on and saw what don the con got away with that day. Even spilled over into my mood throughout the day. I honestly lived in fear that we would have a tyrannical government. I wasn't even relaxed until the ceremony was over and Biden was our president. I read the crazy things the Trump followers had predicted would happen at the inauguration and even though I didn't believe them, I just felt better knowing we had a compassionate and caring group in the White House.

I'm not depressed, not anxious, not unhappy. I'm stuck in a rut but that's been that way for decades. But I feel like there's no forward. Maybe it's because the long political fight is over for now? I dunno. Empty, no path. I can't find anything to buy, can't find what I'm looking for, food is healthy, good, but not enthusiastic about it. It's tax time. I'm embracing that, and also reading for the first time in a while. Maybe it's the cold and snow and winter. I'm motivated to keep pushing, but what's next? You know what I mean?