But I decided awhile ago that life was going to have to kill me, I wasn’t gonna do it’s dirty work.

Another day of trying to make a difference, and even if it doesn’t I will embrace the absurdity of it all.

The world still needs you even when you don’t know why.

The world could do without me, I'm tired of it. Mentally I can't do it anymore.

I think you have had a hard row, and have struggled bravely. Not to minimize your pain, but I hope you will hang on and continue to share your life with those who care and those who are helped by your example.

I am not qualified and fear saying the wrong thing; do you have access to any support close by?

on what you are thankful for. Thankfulness is the key to happiness.

But its all still out there waiting. Can't hide from it anymore like I once could, I thought I could fight it but I don't have it in me anymore.

bed, a refrigerator with food in it, shoes on your feet, etc. This needs to be a part of your life forever.

Become a school crossing guard and make a kid's life a bit better.


No. You can't fix the world or even the U.S.A. but you can make one person's life better or even your neighborhood better.

Now if you dismiss this, I'm gonna come back harder at you.

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Please stay in touch.

As far as the world burning and rights being nuked - maybe we can at least go down fighting?

Just to say again - you aren't alone.

I told my girlfriend how I felt and shes been very supportive today. It helped me rebound.

Thanks for letting us know. Hang in there.

I am so done with it all. I have nothing left to offer. Yes, it is easier to just die. But, I have someone else in my equation and I cannot fathom hurting him. Please remember that the world is not burning, it is changing. Yes, our rights as people who are not pasty white and wealthy are getting hammered. As suicidal as I am every single day, I do have to admit that most of me would rather die as a martyr if I have to die over being gay, or a Democrat, or whatever other excuse the rabid right can think up. I am sorry, I am rambling. I will close with this. It is all but impossible to feel that others care when they are not in the room with you. This is because of current social trends. But, there are people out here who would rather you try talking with us or something like that. We who suffer from mental health issues do not get the luxury of ignoring when we are down. They have no clue. Don't let the general ignorance convince you that there are no one cares. There are people here that do.

Girlfriend is there and her daughter. I can't do it. Or to my mother. I know easy way out I can't do it.

To read a post like this with that knowledge is troubling.

Please reach out to professionals for help. Please.