Somedays are better than others

Today isn't one of them. The shear amount of hate I get because I exist is very overwhelming. I got fascists wanting to control all aspects of my life whether its ban my therapy or ban me from a bathroom. I can't just simply exist and live my life. I can't leave the house without a gun because any moment some religious asshole is gonna have a moment of becoming Dirty Harry and blasting my ass off this earth. Why? Simply because I'm a trans woman.

So much shit in 2022/23. People love to find the most hated group because (enter reason here) and today is just one of those days I'd rather just kill myself than live through this shit anymore. Sometimes death sounds like a better choice than to be put through hell and torment. But then they win if I do that. They erased another trans person off the earth. That's the goal. So I don't win in either regard.

Doesn't matter how passing I am. Its the fact that the hate piles on more and more and more and its wedging cracks in me. I can't take it. I'm filled with anger, pain, and fear all in one.