people.

We care about you.

Sending you a big, giant, hug.

Don't beat yourself up.

lounge would sink like a rock. It hasn't. the incident I discussed brought back all the awful memories and triggered me to a flashback of me getting beaten by my brother instead of seeing a neighbor beating his dog. I did call the police only after posters told me to. I don't think that some understand a life of abuse. I wanted to help the dog from the trumper but was frozen within my memories. And I still have to wait to May to see my new doctor.

"Everyone has the right to make an ass out of themselves....you just can't let the world judge you too much."

Hasn’t done or said something we wish we hadn’t? No one, that’s who.

deb you’re a valued member of the DU community. Don’t beat yourself up. You’re among friends here.

that.

You just had a bad day. Like we all do now and again.

There’s nothing more you could have done that wouldn’t risk your own safety. It’s crappy and it sucks but bad shit happens all the time. I am sorry you had that awful experience. I hate that there are people in the world like that. You’re better than they are because you have basic compassion and empathy. Those monsters are the losers. Not you.

out of this. Earlier tonight I wan't to take the whole bottle of painkillers. Took one and asked husband to hide bottle.Thank you for your kind words. However, I believe in the spirit of the soul.

in your situation. I had an embarrassing day 3 weeks ago. I work full time but my husband is 10 years older and disabled from COPD. He fell last month and broke his hip ending up hospitalized 10 days. He was extremely confused and agitated for days after surgery; it was pure hell to see him like that and I was very worried. By day 5 postop he finally got better mentally and I was needed at work, so I drove to my office where we have an attached concrete parking structure. I know I was preoccupied and not sleeping well but thought I was ok to drive. As I was pulling into a parking spot I hit the gas instead of the brake, hitting a concrete wall extremely hard. I had bruises on my chest where the seat belt restrained me and the force jolted my neck badly.

I was SO embarrassed I wanted to crawl in a hole and hide. I really hated myself for doing such a stupid thing. Isn't it funny how we hold ourselves to a higher standard than those around us? I beat myself up about my accident for many days. I find it's so much harder to for me to forgive myself when I make mistakes, as opposed to forgiving others.

I've rambled too much. Hope you are healing, you're among friends at DU.
Here's a sincere hug:

all were dealing with etreme family issues. We didn't look for each other, but for some reason we were drawn to each other. Yes, it is very hard to forgive ourselves.Maybe we set a higher bar for ourselves then we do for others? That we have to be perfect and make no mistakes. I wish you well my friend. thank you for your kind words. My husband has COPD. right now it is not too bad. I wish you and you husband all the love in the world.

You are okay. You should vent when you can. I do it here all the time and always feel embarrassed about it. But, it is so much better to let it out. We are here. You are here with us. We care and want you to feel better.

about "Karen". I saw the strong person that you are and it helped me with writing my other post. Again, thank you,

4:30 and had screaming .My husband was asleep. So was son. Here I am in the middle of the night searching the house for someone. I am very nervous. I was going to wake husband up to take me to the hospital. I felt like I lost it.I am mad,very mad.and hurt and everything keeps running through my head.