For another chapter on your quest to being happy. Just know..we all make our own happiness..no one. No job. Just ourselves. Open your heart and you’ll find gratitude and happiness are close by. I wish you the best of health on your journey. And, hey. If ya don’t wanna make coffee..don’t.

As I have said many times, I envy those who have no idea what they want to do in life. For someone like me, who knew from a very early age, it has been a terror-filled failure because I knew what I wanted, but it was not meant to be. When one knows what one wants to do in life, and one is never allowed to do it, then what? I hope you find whatever it is. The finding might be the better part of the journey. All I can tell you is that the ability to do what you love is not enough in a society where you are expected to be as greedy as those vultures that dictate policy in this country. Especially when your 'calling' is not something that falls into the 'I am getting mine' category.

By the time I pulled it all back together I was at least ten years behind the "normal" schedule.

By the time I was forty none of that mattered any more. I was just me. No apologies, no regrets for what I "could have been..."

Be kind to yourself.

It seems to me, from what I've read here, you are a very courageous human being.