Mentally drained

Girlfriend just couldn't understand why I didn't wanna celebrate the 4th. Her parents immigrated here and she was born here. And she didn't understand. I tried to explain it. But she said her parents absolutely feel the need to celebrate freedom and all that jargon. So reluctantly I got pulled into an event I didn't want to go to and my back was hurting already from an injury I got yesterday at work and I really just wanted to relax today and just try to heal up but nope I'm sitting outside watching people shoot this crap off and I'm in pain the whole time. And then it happened.

Fucking firework mishap and it explodes and it shoots everywhere including where I'm at. Scrambling to get out of the way and injure myself further.

At this point I am so fucking infuriated that I called to my mom to come pick me up.

Last Goddam thing I ever do to just show face. girlfriend has been texting me apologizing overnight for hours but I'm not even responding at this point. I'm so upset but it's my fault at the same time. I should have been more resilient but I didn't wanna look bad once again. My back is three ways of messed up now.