Mental Health Support
Related: About this forumMind racing thoughts on mortality
Thanks for bearing with me. I'm googling calcifications again, and all sorts of cancer stuff is coming up from reputable sources. My ultrasound is Thursday. I'm terrified. Awaiting to see if lease is renewed.
So much I want to do. Another part of me is like, if its serious, just let Nature take its course. I hate being in this position. I know Life doesn't work this way. I've always tried to be a good person and do whats right. I think I'm putting off the TMJ treatment now. No point if I'm dying. I'm cleaning to keep busy.
I'm sorry for constantly posting. Just feel so alone
multigraincracker
(34,077 posts)Had my annual chest CS over 2 weeks ago. The results are usually posted on my portal in a day or two. Nothing yet.
Doing a lot of breathing exercises to combat it. Kind of working.
In the mean time Im thrilled that I just got the news that my new wife has been put on my health insurance. She was paying $200/week for a crap insurance. Now she is covered for life. She is a RN that does home care for babies hooked up to machines to stay alive. She is a Saint.
Best of luck and hang in there.
XanaDUer2
(13,872 posts)I'm so glad for that. I'm on Medicare now.
I know its hard. Scary. I don't even want to look at my portal. This is irrational. I should take control. My mom died at 60. I'm 58.
3catwoman3
(25,441 posts)A virtual one will have to do -
XanaDUer2
(13,872 posts)Thank you. I need a hug.
CountAllVotes
(21,068 posts)I'm right there with you my friend.
We go on anyway and too often we haven't a clue as to why.
XanaDUer2
(13,872 posts)Thanks for understanding
pandr32
(12,170 posts)DU is a community and we are here for you.
Sending a virtual hug.
I really feel guilty for constantly posting. Like I'm a hog. My fears build up to a point I just. Feel like I'm going to lose it
pandr32
(12,170 posts)Guilt just makes you feel worse so you should remind yourself that all of us have the option to stop or not stop by your posts as we scroll. There is no way anyone finds you a bother.
You have a need right now and sounding out to us is perfectly welcome.
I can only imagine I would be going through a lot of fear and anxiety if I were in your position.
More hugs for you.
XanaDUer2
(13,872 posts)Truly
pandr32
(12,170 posts)Polly Hennessey
(7,454 posts)hold your hand, I would 🫶🏼🤗
XanaDUer2
(13,872 posts)That means a lot. My sister who sprouts RW talking points, is constantly sick, in pain, etc but doesn't like to hear me talk about my health. I'll read "I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE TAKE CARE OF MY NIECE"
She's a disaster
irisblue
(34,265 posts)The waiting for the exam, then the results is 2000 kinds of a bitch.
And post as much as you like, that is why the forum exists
MLAA
(18,602 posts)XanaDUer2
(13,872 posts)Just have a bad feeling for some reason
XanaDUer2
(13,872 posts)Ashes in a S FL cemetery. My beloved grandfather is buried there all alone, and I dont want him to be down there alone