Interesting session with my therapist, yesterday

First off, the timing could not have been better since I lost that sweet newborn kitten the night before. I shed more than a few tears during the session and he knew what to say to bring me back in balance. He said he's going to call me, tomorrow, to check on how I'm doing.

The interesting thing was, he offered to arrange for the clinic to take over my MH medications. He said he could refer me to one of their NPs but he'd prefer I see their psychiatrist for the evaluation. I guess I might be even worse off than I realize. Unfortunately, I can't get an appointment with him until July, which I booked, but I'll see if it's OK for me to wait so long.

I have to book a 'wellness visit' with my APN, which I'm dreading. I've had some pretty awful experiences with doctors so going in, even for just one of these quick visits is nothing short of a major trigger. To make it even more difficult, she is pretty callous about my anxiety situation and told me that since I'm in therapy, I should 'get over' any issues causing my depression/anxiety. I have zero confidence she will renew those prescriptions. Another situation that really triggers my anxiety.

My best bet is to find a new provider but that seems an overwhelming task, right now.