because of it. I wasn't drinking very often anyway in recent years. My thing was "alcoholic for a week" three or four times a year. That's what I called it.

I'd get the urge and get drunk three or four times in a week or ten days. About then a hangover would be bad enough that I'd be cured again. It didn't seem like much harm.

They also prescribe Celexa for alcoholism. That's not why I'm on it but I'm way, way past my usual urge to drink thing and that must be why.

and then it really escalated as the kids hit the teen years and I had more health issues. (duh, and alcohol was not helping!)

The last 5 years were really the worst. I was a "functional"alcoholic...i hid it well for the most part but waiting till 5 every day to get drunk for the evening wasn't good.

So yeah, drunk me wasn't very present, and sober me is now seeing what 20 years of buried emotional trauma feels like

It was recommended to me by a guy I know who's a combat veteran with PTSD. He says it's the must-read book on the topic.

Had a great psychiatrist that pointed out my ADHD and PTSD. That explained everything. Never hungered for a drug or took any for 34 years once I learned what was going on. A few years later I got off of antidepressants after I developed tremors from them. Now it’s exercise and a healthy diet.