It's been an absolutely horrible year, so far.

Just hugs and caring and hoping the best for you.

It's my favorite color and usually helps me feel better. Truth is, I don't want the outside shell to resemble the inside mess.

I have skirts that I used to wear to work. Long, cotton, some have spangles and some have beads sewn in to a pattern and most are sort of an Indian influence. Someone once told me that I dressed like a belly dancer!! I think I dress like what I am. An aging Hippie.

me, too.

Things around you might not be, but you are good.

You’ll get through this!

Anxiety is a beast. Please don't let it devour you. Use this forum for support as much as you need to. We all understand, and we all care about you.

What a nightmare.

I hope you can feel better after therapy. I was at mine yesterday and we talked about how much danger I will be in should the worst come to pass.

I am in a quandary about how to respond and hope to come to some solutions soon.

Hopefully you can find peaceful moments through the day... one day at a time.

is here for you. Lean as hard as you need.

I will be thinking of you. I have lurked on DU for a while, and have followed the stories of the indoor and outdoor kidcats with great interest. I share all the stories with my husband and son. The kidcats are all celebrities at our house! I've cried with you when you've lost one, and rejoiced in each of your stories of success. Every picture you post of your babies lifts my spirits. I admire you so much, and I am grateful every day that there are people like you who try to make the world a better place for ALL beings, not just humans! Thank you. I am so very sorry you lost another kidcat, and will be keeping the new kitten in my thoughts. Hugs to you all.
By the way I have an ancient Saturn sedan that I bought in 1996. She is the 2nd Saturn that I have owned. The interior is falling apart, someone damaged the driver's side a while back in a parking lot, and the air conditioning has finally conked out, (although I think it might be just low on coolant.) I have resisted buying a new car all these years. I have never been attached to a car before, but "Ol' Girl" has served me so well, she's like a member of the family. It's past time to replace her, and yet I can't bring myself to let her go. I hope your car gets better, and your brother's Saturn brings him safely home!

I've been dealing with a situation I haven't shared because I'm tired of so much sadness but maybe if I share it I will feel a little better.

I rescued 3 kittens from a mom who abandoned them. Beautiful little girls I named Twyla, Dwyn and Tegwen. Unfortunately it seems the mom knew they were not going to survive so I've suffered through the loss of two of them and the third one, Tegwen, is on my lap as I type this. I'm not sure if she will see another day, or even another hour, or if her sisters are calling to her to join them.

I suspect that the problem is 'Fading Kitten Syndrome'. There's really not much that can be done as a treatment because the causes can be many and it is mysterious and usually only found by performing a necropsy. A friend of mine took a litter, with similar issues, to the vet every day for 5 days and nothing could be done. They seem healthy one day and then you can see them, well, start to fade. Sometimes it's pretty rapid, as with her sisters. Tegwen has always been a strong kitten and the last that the mom rejected. I was so hopeful she would have a different fate but now I'm not sure.

So my life is on hold, right now, as I cuddle this baby through what ever life has in store for her. If she goes to be with them, she will have a resting place right by their side.

A few kind thoughts for her would be most appreciated.

I have nothing to offer you but kind thoughts for Tegwen. I wish, my friend, that there was something more that I could do. If it is to be that Tegwen has to leave you, she leaves knowing love. Thank you so much for that. Please give her a cuddle from me, and I will be thinking of you both.

She's still with me, which is pretty astonishing. She goes from an almost comatose state to looking around. I took her outside and she just wanted to get up on the deck. It's just one step and she made it but it really tired her out.

She has something wrong with her digestive system and I want to try to wash her little butt and tail. I know she's not going to like it but there is a real mess back there. I'll have a tub of warm water all ready and take care of it as fast as I can. That can't be comfortable for her.

Will be thinking of you both.