I'm calmer

I was doing great. Then he pushed my jaw back hard and I'm experiencing pain. I'm not crazy. The depth of anger depression fear I'm feeling. Now is off the charts. I see no hope. I've been dealing w this over a yr and things were going well until he pushed my jaw hard. For complex reasons, i cannot get the money back and start over. Just believe me its too complex to go into.

I went from no pain to pain. I am so depressed now thete are no words. Got an apology from SO but i asked do u c y I'm so upset? Something something I'm bothering them and the dr will drop me as a patient n i brought this on myself by moving appmnt up per drs orders. Fuck you Nick.

Btw he claims hes in constant pain. I'm not sorry. Hes a horrible abusive prick. I have to drive him to pain management tomorrow too then c ythr dentist. I'm saying I'm in pain. Y can't i talk abt what is happening to me?!

ETA: TY concerned DUers. I mean you guys are pretty. Much all I have. Its embarassing but I'm at the end of my rope. The fact you all reached out means a lot and that you care about me and what happens and you listen to me. I feel so alone. My sisters good friend died today so I can't really talk to her. She didn't support my treatment and I'll hear I told you so.