always such a crap shoot. hope that you at least transition without too much falderal.

Not suicidal, not reckless with money, not a danger to myself or others.

But there is always falderal...

I seem to be a bit manic at the moment but this ain't the Fresno or the Riverside or the Santa Barbara of my young adulthood... I'm not looking down at my bleeding bare feet on the pavement at two o'clock in the morning with a cop asking me who I am and what I'm doing there.

Thanks!

I think I'm worse... Bipolar II with lots of hypomania to boot. No real impulse control but enough holding myself from doing anything too stupid or dangerous so far. Though I have been dangerous and stupid before, so I'm worried.

Speaking from my own experiences, "dangerous and stupid" phases best not done alone...

The friends I had were from psychward, and well... You know how well that can work out. Drunken telephone calls and using me for a baby sitter instead of a friend, or they end up in a nursing home.

I'm horrible at making real friends, and NAMI friends can be just as bad as psychward friends. (Mainly because they have their own shit to deal with.) I kind of gave up on finding these rare creatures called friends. Send out my phone number how many times I like, only 1 out of 20 call back twice.

... a few minor brain zaps, the benign fasciculation twitching in my diaphragm and abdomen. Some sweating.

And I may be a little manic.

Intellectually I'm good, I can think myself past the anxiety, and not nearly so bad as the time I quit Effexor cold-turkey... heh.

I'm my own favorite experimental subject.

Thanks.