Feeling sympathetic to people who quit meds against medical advice...

Last edited Wed Mar 13, 2013, 11:51 PM - Edit history (1)

... a continuation of my current adventure.

I've written previously how I was unsatisfied with the meds I was taking, especially the one that was killing my libido, so I reduced the dosage of it against all medical advice.

Of course not taking adequate meds is what prompted my slide into my usual paranoid-ocd-depression. As always, the first thing that flew out the window was my ability to judge my own mental state. I ignored other unrelated medical problems too, which got me back to the doctor in a more-messed-up-than-usual state. I joked lamely with my doctor that I must be one of his more non-compliant patients but he didn't really smile.

So now I'm back on more powerful meds, meds I've some past experience with. The paranoid-ocd-depression stuff has gone away, I'm taking care of the unrelated medical poblems, and I've got some libido back. But I'd forgotten how very annoying the side effects of these particular meds are.

I'll keep taking them anyways, but I totally understand people who quit meds with worse side effects than these. I'll keep taking them because I worry that someday I'll end up in a hole so deep I can't be extracted from it, and the first step of digging that hole will be me avoiding the doctor and hiding the growing darkness within me from others.

Edited to add link to previous post...

http://www.democraticunderground.com/11513192