Would you expect anything different from TexasTowelie though?

I've never tried weed. Oh and I live in Vancouver Canada where it's all but legal. I'm actually quite curious about its effect on my moods and would be interested in trying it. However suffering from bad depression and anxiety I'm also quite reticent about taking it. Weed can have some bad psychological side effects if you are prone to them, paranoia, and worse. Wouldn't want to touch off a psychotic break. Also there's the interactions with the medications I'm already taking. Not that I don't play a dangerous game as it is what with the SSRIs and binge drinking on weekends.

As for my personal consumption, I tend to be the quiet, giggly drunk. However, I know others that are belligerent and others that fall deep into depression when consuming it.

I can also recount many times where I've heard stories of cocaine/crack users who fall into suicidal feelings when coming off highs from those drugs for several days afterwards. It's difficult to believe that short amount of euphoria is worth it considering the paranoia that comes while using it and the depressive state after using.

I have been fighting for so long I don't know how to quit.

I seem to keep finding new lows. I was told when I was younger that things would get better with age. And I have to admit I find that to be the truth for some aspects to life. It seems that I have less anxiety about situations as I age. I suppose it's just exposure to the breadth of possible outcomes, once you have experienced it all there's less to fear. But that doesn't seem to hold so much for the depression side of the equation.

It does not have to be a physical fight. It can be any challenge. Making a computer do what someone told you could not be done. Making it through the day.

Everything is a puzzle with a solution, the problem is finding it.