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olddots

(10,237 posts)
Fri Apr 26, 2013, 10:04 PM Apr 2013

i was posting something so depressing --then the internet went out

kind of a non suicide -suicide note ... a word salad of tears and anger X loneliness and mental pain mixed with physical pain .

Its times like these that keep me alive to die another day ( sorry James Bond title )

shit it was a good one too about calling a list of so called therapists twice and getting no call backs then my wife calling them in her cheery non desperate voice and I bet she gets called back from everyone one of them so she can think I'm more of a failure for being so weak and sick .......oh well god night somehow and may the net not crash in our times of need .

Do you sometimes feel you have all the answers but don't listen to them ?

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i was posting something so depressing --then the internet went out (Original Post) olddots Apr 2013 OP
Not sure. NYC_SKP Apr 2013 #1
I'm superstitious about things like that. hunter Apr 2013 #2
the internet going out was a sign olddots Apr 2013 #3
"start living" has it's own kind of pressure. At my worst, I just "be." hunter Apr 2013 #4
That must have felt bad. Ranting helps. nt. Locut0s Apr 2013 #5
Buckaroo Banzai needed to become a franchise with atleast 6 more epesodes olddots Apr 2013 #6
 

NYC_SKP

(68,644 posts)
1. Not sure.
Fri Apr 26, 2013, 10:29 PM
Apr 2013

I do, however, know that I sometimes way over-think matters and that sometimes when I do it's counterproductive.

Sometimes we really do have to take a break, let it go, take a nap, distract toward the things that are good in life.

They are there, always, but we don't always allow ourselves to see them.

hunter

(38,953 posts)
2. I'm superstitious about things like that.
Sat Apr 27, 2013, 12:26 PM
Apr 2013

Whenever a glitch eats a post in progress, especially a long one, I think "maybe this wasn't meant to be." Sometimes I'll rewrite it, sometimes not.



If I had my radar on for "all the answers" I'd go crazy. My head is full of answers, not all of them good answers.

When I'm feeling overwhelmed I back off and live in the moment.

Many of my problem are a consequence of OCD. I can't stop thinking about something, I can't stop doing something. If that's a positive thing it's not so bad, it can actually be a benefit. If it's a negative or inconsequential thing my life gets a lot worse.

I take meds to deal with the worst but I also practice "living in the moment" or just "being." It's not a formal meditation of any kind, just a focus on where I am, not where I'm going, or where I've been. Here I am, breathing, alive. That's a pretty good place to be.

 

olddots

(10,237 posts)
3. the internet going out was a sign
Sat Apr 27, 2013, 05:40 PM
Apr 2013

what kind of sign and from where or who -I don't know but its like comic timing .

ranting has saved many lives and pissed off many people in range of the rants but sometimes it's all we got.

My mantra of " you don't want to die , you want to start living " has served me well for 50 years
what scares me is that it will be outshouted someday .

hunter

(38,953 posts)
4. "start living" has it's own kind of pressure. At my worst, I just "be."
Sat Apr 27, 2013, 09:31 PM
Apr 2013
Hey, hey, hey — don't be mean. We don't have to be mean. 'Cause, remember: no matter where you go... there you are. -- Buckaroo Banzai.

Most especially, don't be mean to yourself.
 

olddots

(10,237 posts)
6. Buckaroo Banzai needed to become a franchise with atleast 6 more epesodes
Sun Apr 28, 2013, 01:54 AM
Apr 2013

That film actually cheers me up every time I see it . what a cast what a concept =about 40 years ahead of it's time


long live Billy & the Beaters along with everyone involved with that film.

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