My sister came over to help me with some stuff and when I was walking down the hallway with the light on, it was truly disgusting. Just cat fur but why could I not bother to pull out the vacuum for five minutes to clean it up. I just didn't care.

I did it last night just because I was so embarrassed.

The bathing part is where I really know I am clinically depressed and don't care. Bathing properly is the minimum of keeping some self respect. I know the signs but just don't care. It is bad.

and furlining behind the almost always open bathroom/bedroom doors. Why does fur go there when the critters don't?

Seriously, I've never been so messed up that a dog licking my face and wagging tail with extreme inexplicable optimism hasn't got me crawling out of bed, stuffing crazy meds and pain meds down my throat, no matter how bad I was smoldering half conscious in the dark hurting.

depression symptoms that need to be brought to attention, supported and not demonized:
◾not showering/bathing for days or even weeks. (this has nothing to do with laziness - a main symptom of depression is being unable to be motivated)
◾not engaging in any social actvities
◾staying up and sleeping in till late
◾not being able to eat
◾neglecting self care as a whole
◾spending entire weeks at home, in the same pajamas, in the same bed
◾disregarding help/support (nothing against you. we’re just really fucking down.)

don’t shame us. we’re having a hard time managing being depressed in general