And when was the last time you & your mental health provider talked? with love irisblue

I would have rare grand hallucinations about how the world was opening up and I was being taken to my death. I'd feel immense senses of dread.

Nowadays, I'm medicated. But I just went 3 days without meds and well, symptoms started arising.

I got my meds back again though so... I'm leveling out. I'm having a good day today I think.

And I haven't talked to my doctor since he first prescribed me the meds half a year ago.

I can't wait to use this best buy gift card you PM'd me!

lol jk. But thank you for your words.

I wonder how far mine will go. And how far it went for my late father.

A few of them were visual, but most of them were auditory. I later came to realize that the voices I was hearing were actually my own thoughts that had gotten dissociated somehow and given life in the illusion that they were in my ear. It was actually all in my head. So are other hallucinations. They are a product of your own psyche.

So when you are having these hallucinations, if they return, it might be helpful to remember that it is some part of you that is creating them. The hallucinations and your reaction to them are much more manageable if you have that understanding. Where people run into a lot of trouble is by thinking that these events are somehow external to themselves.

I am aware that the hallucinations are my mind going awry. Sometimes they have been intense to the point that, it's no matter, I'll still feel a sense of dread.

BUT.

Regarding disassociation, I have felt that in regards to my physical body. Like I'm just a passenger in a seat watching my body pilot itself throughout the day. Weird stuff!

Often develops in the wake of trauma. A thing to keep in mind because traumas can be addressed.

indicates they are not "bona fide" hallucinations. Hallucinations feel as real as a dream can feel. And one is as helpless with these as a dreamer is about the dream.

Maybe I wasn't clear in my post.

you began to experience hallucinations as from within? If that's the case, then, good for you, that does give you a handle on things.
Although I have no research findings to back that up, my clinical experience is that bipolar hallucinations are different from schizophrenic hallucinations. I believe they are mostly an expression of the manic reaction to the depressive pull. That would make them a little less severe than schizophrenic ones, more "workable".

I no longer have hallucinations. The medication really works well for me.