For the past week or so, my manager has been leering and totally giving the cold shoulder with hard stares. It made life so much more stressful.

Basically, I'm a repair technician and I really couldn't repair that medical equipment that was sitting in our lab for over a week, and neither could the engineers in Austria! Take that boss! I'm not an idiot! And it wasn't my lack of knowledge!

Since that small victory, my boss has backed off quite a bit. I'm more content!

I told my shrink/friends I would reach out more, do pushing out, so hugs.

not having a boss upset at something out of your control

How is Murphy? I miss my dogs, alot. Once upon a time, I stopped at the library to return some books, & I heard another patron laughing at the 2 dog heads sticking out of my car, a good memory. 💓

... a joyless lump of misery. The Prozac dose bump didn't work, so I may be looking at a new round of medication roulette. Given my physical comorbidities, that's always a fun time.

But husband dearest survived his 5-way bypass and is recovering well, my flowers are coming up even if I can't manage to tend to them, and my kids still make me laugh every day.

Holding on to the good things with both hands in a death-grip,
DLO

And yet you persist...my garden is dead after my depressioni killed it. What kind of garden

...which is actually ok. The border beds and wildflower beds I'm leaving to their own devices - I live in the country and feral is a fine look out here. But I am desperately trying to keep the main one in front of the house from turning into a jungle - a challenge, as the footprint of that garden is larger than my house, lol. I have given up on annuals -- too much work for something that's not coming back next year.
I also had to give up on the veggie garden - perhaps the 19 year old will be motivated this year to plant something in it.

Really and truly gorgeous!

My goal today is to catch up on some art - doing a bunch of snail mail swaps. I love making things, but then I this perfectionist streak comes out in me and I'm never happy, which leads to procrastination and a deep funk.

I have never had anything turn out 'perfect' by any standards - many because I am clumsy and impatient - yet people always seem to love what I send them so I need to focus on that.

But here is my joy of the week - it sounds silly but hey

I am one of those people who, despite having depression, has a huge amount of joyful glee lurking under the surface. So lots of little things can get me really excited. I have been watching crafting videos on youtube and keep seeing these powdered water colors that you sprinkle a tiny amount of powder on a page, spray some water and poof! all this color just radiates out like fireworks. Of course, impulse buy - I ordered some and they came yesterday. Super excited to try them out and HOLY COW.... it looks like a plain piece of paper with eye shadow dust sprinkled on, but when I sprayed with water - the color was so VIBRANT and intense!! It was amazing!!

I hope to leave the house today (I did leave Monday - but I really need to leave more than once a week - even if it's to sit outside) - so fingers crossed I get the energy and motivation to do that today!!

Thanks for checking in on us!

I think spring coming with more daylight helps, and it's warmer.

My son is doing OK with his grandparents, so that's nice. I'm doing OK. No dramas.