Until Monday, just hold on.
Do you have anybody you can stay with over the weekend so you are not by yourself?

I will be sluggish, reading, maybe watching movies & playing chakra balancing CDs ( might work who knows). I'll be moving along. I will not say fine, cuz I'm not, but I'm moving.
Thx for the support.

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time but glad you are going to reach out for help.

Would going to a movie help?

I know what you mean, the heat/humidity sickens me greatly. I almost passed out in Safeway yesterday only to come home to this POS parked along side my house blocking the sunlight from entering it.

It is a 60 ft. long trailer that is c. 1970. The owner moved it alongside my place of residence while I was at the doctor yesterday! I called the sheriff and they could care less!

I am so angry and sick I'm wishing for a quick end to the miserable life I am living.

#mssucks ... oh don't you know it!

develops painful burning hemorrhoids. May it be so!
I have some DVDs & popcorn for later tonight to watch & munch, a small self care
I think I have the first Pirates of the Caribbean, that made me laugh, and I do have Firefly, always a mood brightener.
Thank you William Carrier for creating AC.

Went to see that last week to kill time between doctor appts. I did not like it at all. It was loud and bang bang bang bang bang every 2 seconds.

As for the POS alongside my house, I am beyond angry.

I was out there photographing it, etc. and the chickenshit that owns it was hiding out in his hidey hole of a dump house. Fucking prick!

No rights I am told, none at all!

I wish I was well as I'd go over there right now and tell him to move the POS to the front of HIS house and HE can look at it all day and have no light in his house!

If you are looking for a movie, even youtube has a lot of good ones and they are free of course if you don't feel up to going out.

As for me, I need to clean up and treat the various fungal infections growing on me. Oh what fun this is NOT!!!!!

Life fucking sucks & that is NOT depression, it is reality!

the street in front of his place because at some point they dropped down jacks
Good luck I remember how pissed he was. Of course the asshole doesn't want it in front of his own place....

I will nail this fucker if it is the last thing I ever do in life believe me!

He moved it a few minutes ago.

I guess that little call about having an 80+ year old vet and a 100% disabled person with MS trying to live in the house and the fact that it WAS 100 ft. from an intersection, they made the little prick move it and move it NOW.

Civil lawsuit are the words. Public at large is enraged!


GONE IT IS --- GONE!!!

so to speak.

Anyway, gone thank god. Who need another outbreak of shingles?

Off to bed for me. I went *poof* for a few days because enough was enough!

*whew* & and a for YOU

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Found out you cannot park something like this within 100 ft. of an intersection. It was 20 feet away.

It was cutting off accessibility to my property in the case of an emergency. An ambulance might not be able to get in. I've had to call an ambulance before and it was a bit of a chore so a gate was installed in the back which was being completely blocked off by this POS.

This weekend it was photographed and documented by the county officials, all of it, and wow are the powers that be ever pissed!

As present, it is now parked in front of another person's home across the street from where I am.

The guy that owns this piece of crap is a greedy little prick. Nothing else to add except that it is gone gone gone thank god for that.

Pays off to do some research! That is for certain!

indeed!!

I'm not so depressed now.

I hope you are feeling a bit better too!

Sort of like that old saying, "Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."—Dale Carnegie

And so we do it seems eh?

Glad I did not listen to the naysayers out there. I went forward and found the answer I needed.

Too bad that the powers the be don't seem to know how to read/interpret the vehicle code! Idiots!

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On edit: it is gone now so I have deleted the photograph of "it".

60 feet of this POS not including the truck

Legal? How could this be legal in a neighborhood?

Princess Bride works wonders too, if you have it.

I hope you are feeling better.

had a couple bad days here cuz insurance decided they were sick of paying for lyrica, and i ended up w none for a couple days. had to pay out of pocket for a week's worth while i argue.
my depression has been under control for quite a while, and it can be hard to remember what it felt like. but i got a big ole reminder this week.

i thank fsm for drugs that keep me out of that place. i try not to get down on myself for the occasional lost day. but if they started piling up into weeks again, i dunno how i would act.

do whatever you can to dig out of that hole. nobody should have to live down there.

meantime, we are here.

Man in a hole, I know you know it.
Ya'll are helping me out of the hole.

but yeah, that was a great episode.

pm me if you feel the need. i am usually here, except in the middle of the day.

Whatever you do, don't start going to casinos to cope. Been there and done that one oh my, what a big mistake I have made.

I had a nervous breakdown after my kitty was poisoned last year and I didn't care about anything and really blew it badly in more than one way.

Depression they say? Nope suck ass reality and the vet that killed my sweet kitty is cursed forever!

Hope that little ray of light breaks threw the darkness and you can make it until the light sets you free of the dark.

the truck and the trailer. Non lethal, doesn't damage but you would get a greasy hand when you tried to access them again. Little things mean a lot.

Irisblue (and Countallvotes too) - hang in there, you are not forgotten.

When my husband, of blessed memory, was in the depths of clinical depression he was unable to listen to music. I hope this is not the case with you, and am sending you something that always lifts my spirits and gives me a little glimmer of hope wherever I hear it.

https://m.

That's true, though, when you're in it, doing dishes is a huge mountain. And the heat and humidity make it worse, same for me.

Good you have a plan for Monday. That in itself is a win.

It will make you feel happy for a short time then it will drag you down fast. I have suffered from depression my entire life and I have found old comedies/films, cooking something new and different, even playing silly computer games and puzzles helps the time pass until I get help.

I'm going through depression too it does suck the life out of you. My cat is the only one keeping me going.hes rolling around and purring all over me. I lost 11 pounds because I don't want to eat or drink and I spend most my day in bed alone.my days are alone. It truly sucks to live when you have no friends anymore. No one comes over.no family, no car,it's too hot to walk.nothing seems worth doing because you're all apathy and numb. Yes it sucks. My day program meets 2 days a week. I don't have a case manager yet and I live in isolation most of the time. I need a 5 day a week program but there are none of those around anymore.one with plenty of people.
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I was concerned for you. Please take care of yourself, at least a glass of water.

((((((hugs)))))

p.S. when I'm depressed and someone is trying to force me to act happy it feels like this to me

And you must fight it. Actualization of depression helps stop it from overtaking you. My late mother suffered from depression all her life and I used remind her she needed to realize she was depressed to feel better.

Times are so thought today politically, and it's so easy to be swallowed up but we all have to say"no" I'm not going to let you win. I will fight back and survive and keep going on. My healing thoughts are with you.

I've been there.
I've been hospitilized.
Believe me. It's been bad.
After the proper medication I've hardly ever felt that way again.I've been able to be a parent. To live and enjoy things..again. this can happen for you.
If your on med they have stopped working. This happened to me with my first meds. Worked for six years then stopped.
If you don't take medication you probably need to.
I can say this.
I refused meds for far to long.
I suffered.
Don't allow another day of suffering.
I'm glad to see you acting.
I've been pretty good since I've found the right medications
In 1999.
Occasionally you'll still get depressed. Anxious. Happy.
But it's 'normal' again.
It's hard for me to believe I was the way I was.
Good luck.