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Related: About this forumI finally vacuumed today
Havent done it since Pooper died because I liked seeing her black fur in little drifts on the stairs and under the bench in the family room. It felt wrong to clean it up. It feels so final.
I keep finding odds and ends, like toys under the couch and in random, hidden spots and a food mat under a table in the guest bedroom. Still havent taken the litter box out to the shed. Its just so weird not having any cat friends, but I am not in a stable enough financial position to adopt a new friend or two. Sucks. The house is so empty and lonely.
Earlier toady I was about to dump an armful of clean laundry on the bed to fold and automatically paused, thinking, Oh, cat hair, and then realized thats no longer an issue. That was the turning point on cleaning. I needed to clean, it was getting very dust bunny-y and crumb-y around here. Fortunately, I am sloppy about vacuuming so there is probably more of her sweet little fur drifts under the dresser and in other hidden nooks.
The worst is I still keep catching myself starting to talk to her.
Sorry for being a downer. I miss my baby.
cilla4progress
(25,901 posts)I still have a deep sorrow over losing Jagger last year...
Hugs
happybird
(5,113 posts)spooky3
(36,199 posts)I did that when I had similar feelings.
happybird
(5,113 posts)the vet took for me. I think its bothering me because she was my last pet. Every time one of my babies has died there were others shedding and making my house feel like a home. Ive never lived in a pet-free home before. Ever. I live alone and its so bleak and quiet here now. Its amazing how one little 10lb cat can fill an entire house with love and comfort and company. The fur drifts made it feel like she was still here somehow, or close by.
spooky3
(36,199 posts)LoveMyCali
(2,033 posts)A lot of us have been in your spot before and I'm really sorry for your loss. If you can't afford to adopt right now could you foster? I don't think I could, I would hate to give them up but I admire those who can foster.
happybird
(5,113 posts)at least not right now. It would basically be the same as adopting because I wouldnt be able to let them go to a new home. Thats how I ended up with so many cats over the years- abandoned strays. Every time we moved into a new rental wed end up collecting an abandoned adult cat or two. Pooper was also a stray but a kitten when we found her. Heck, we originally had intentions of finding her a good home. The best fail, ever.
niyad
(119,901 posts)completely. Of course you start talking to her. Just because she is not in a physical body does not mean that she cannot hear you. And do not be surprised if you see her from time to time. She is looking after you.
StarryNite
(10,822 posts)I still talk to mine and I don't plan on stopping. My last pup died 2 1/2 years ago.
MLAA
(18,599 posts)PortTack
(34,643 posts)Had to put down one of my sweet boys last fall. I found one of his whiskers when cleaning up his favorite sleeping area about a week later and just burst into tears
again. The vet gave me some clippings of his beautiful fur before I left him, it actually helped our other two understand in their own way. Ive put it away with his ashes. Its getting better but I know how it hurts
.
Take care!
Hermit-The-Prog
(36,587 posts)Someday it will be tossed in the trash, but not while I remember him.
herding cats
(19,612 posts)I completely understand. I still have the T-shirt I wore to take my Boo to the vet that final time in a plastic bag in a chest. It's the last time he ever shedded on me and when I came home I knew I'd never wash that shirt again.