You need time to grieve. It will get better. I know...I've been there many times.

I know of a rescue that struggles with it also, even with professional vet help. You did the best you could for her and loved her as long as she was with you. Take care of yourself now!

I know you know all the things but I just feel like I want to tell you this. Without you their little lives could have been awful. With you they knew the love we all need and they gave some right back to you. That is the best life has to offer and you provided it. I just had to say that just in case you ever start to wonder what else you could have done. Nothing is the answer. Love and care and safety is the answer, the only answer but it does not happen all the time.

You gave much and tried so hard. It wasn’t meant to be. The ache is forever but we never give up, do we.

You gave much and tried so hard. It wasn’t meant to be. The ache is forever but we never give up, do we.

loving arms, and please send peace and comfort and healing to Your emissary, our beloved Siwsan, who gives her all to save these precious babies.

I am so very sorry for the loss of these precious babies, dear friend. They left knowing that they were loved and safe. I know your heart and spirit are breaking. Please be as good to yourself as you are to the little ones. We all grieve with, and for, you.

for little lost wild kitties and you need to rest. These babies are so fragile and if their mother is not around, we humans have to do the best we can. I have heard from friends in cat rescue that B12 can help for flea anemia but I don't know anything about dosing. I always keep fish mox (amoxicillin) and liquid B12 on hand, as well as topical flea treatment, and usually try to consult with those who have more expertise than I do. Hope you have someone to give advice on how to help the littlest ones. Bless you for always caring and always trying to help them survive.

I rescued a litter of 4 kittens, at most 1 week old, left out in a box on the street on a cold evening over 20 years ago. I spent the first night trying to save all of them, but only one made it through the night. The sweet calico girl who was still alive, "Kitty", lasted about 3 more days. I was up almost all night, every night, and took her with me everywhere in a little "nest" that kept her warm and protected and next to me all day. I thought she was going to make it, but on about the 4th day she declined rapidly and died.
That was over 20 years ago. I have had many cats before and since who lived into their late teens. I have fostered many kittens and adults. And yet, I still sometimes think about sweet Calico Kitty who I only knew for a few days.

The more I ponder the meaning of things, the more convinced I become that some of us are meant to be love guides to our babies, meaning all we come across.
Please accept this incredible honor that has been bestowed upon the likes of us to give love so freely and importantly to those who've lost it or worse yet, never had it.
I heard a beautiful statement who I can't credit but it simply says that we must love fiercely to have a broken heart.
To die alone is to die lost is my fear for humans and animals. You have spared so many babies and adults that terrible event by the gift of your love, patience, warmth, kindness, generosity and faith.
I continue to talk to my Snuggles every day, thanking her for teaching me so much and I promise that the love I have for her is a gift I will share with all those like her, given the opportunity.
Finally, let me say why I'm so grateful for these moments:
I get to feel all the difficult emotions that come with love and loss, Safely.
God Speed and know you are in my heart, thoughts and hopes and dreams for the very best for you, including more opportunities for the gifts and costs of the greatest of these gifts.... LOVE

They knew they were loved.

Thanks for giving them love and warmth.

You gave your all for these 3 babies. They were loved and cared for and sometimes, that just isn't enough. Please take care of yourself. You have all of your kitties who need your special brand of selfless love and devotion.💔🌈

My eyes are full of tears. You wrote so beautifully and with such love. Sleep well knowing that you have given these angels just what they needed while they were here.

You did your best, and they did not pass alone. You gave them love and tenderness.

They are over the rainbow now and meeting up with Tudor , Morgan, Sophie and the rest of your kitties

so sorry Siwsan.

Hugs to you and the kidcats.

I don't have much to add to all the heartfelt nessages already here, except to sad that I agree with all of them. I hope you sleep well tonight and that your kidcats give you tons of love and comfort.