Confession

My life has been wasted
On so much that does not matter
No benefit to anyone
But to my selfish needs

I have been a lousy father
Devoid of empathy
Ears sealed tight
Not hearing the words
Eyelids closed
Not seeing the truth
Not fulfilling the needs
Of my wife and children

So much guilt in my heart
Now that time has passed
And the damage has been done
What can I do?
Can I heal the past?
Is it possible to make amends?
Or is the chasm between us permanent
Forever, a gap unbridgeable?

What can I do?
I cannot forget, nor forgive
Myself
This monstrous ego
Always about me
As I wallow in misery
Blaming others before
Now, obviously my own fault

Looking forward, things must change
As time races onward towards the end
I must do my best to be the man
I should have been all along
Loving, caring, listening
Patient, kind, hopeful

Confession sealed, a call to action.