Very nice!!! Thank you MagicalThyme.

I agree that addiction and core work are the big things at work here...been really doing that dance myself recently, and it ain't easy!

Funny, I found myself changing my external circumstances to create something where I would HAVE to do the work on my inner stuff and break my bad habits. It's still a struggle though, because i find myself acting almost automatically and then the next day have to ask myself "what was that?" "where was I?" cuz it's like I literally check out and go unconscious.
during the day, I am on task and walking on my path with real effort and consciousness, and then when the kids go to bed, i just turn off and check out...what's interesting was the part of the article that says that most addictions (food, drink, etc) are really regarding isolation....and for me it is boredom as well. there's plenty of things I can do to reconnect and be in alignment with spirit...but i end up choosing the option to 'check out'

however, this is the time to just shake it off and realign. there's no time to waste, the earth is changing too fast now and definitely feel the 'sink or swim' energies at work!

thanks for sharing

Thank gawd you said that FirstLight!
Because I've been doing the same bloody thing and it sucks!!!! LOL!
I'm so uncomfortable in my body from not smoking that I find myself out of body way to much!!!
I have started doing aerobics to get endorphines going and ground but even then sometimes I still have trouble staying in Body While doing the excercise!
And don't get me started on the EATING!!!! OMG!!!!!!1

to brownies! They're making me sick, but after struggling for a couple days without brownies, trying to fill the urge with o.j., I'm compelled to buy and make another batch. And in the last few days, a mid-afternoon 1/2 cup of coffee. Again, making my gut ill. But I crave the energy jolt. Without it, I fall asleep now. Sigh.

Shaking out of it!!!!


Magical Thyme do you think that maybe a vitamen B12 pill might work????

in particular one that gets me out of the house and into company with other humans, might work better. There is a kung fu class on Monday nights that I'd like to try, but suddenly I seem to scheduled to work on any Monday night that isn't stormy and freezing weather.

My worst addiction, I must admit, is the internets and is totally related to filling in the relationship gap. I'm embarrassed to admit that the other day I ended up with a strained wrist from mousing all day I'm thinking that a martial arts class with emphasis on the spiritual aspects of the arts of course, will both get my sloth-like self moving and put me around like-minded people. At least such things are finding their way to my neck of the woods.

I swear, it's just the silliest thing...I only smoke at night, I only drink then too, and i watch movies that I don;t even remember watching...WTF?
not like I am drinking to get hammered either, just 'altered' a little bit... it's the weirdest thing.
A friend said I tend to drop my space then and that it makes it easier for 'walk-ins' to come and play in my body, like the invasion of the body snatchers!
not a fun thing to think about, but still...worth noting.
I got the dog so I'd have a reason to get up in the morning and go walking, and she is also filling the 'love-gap' so maybe in a while i will be able to use her as a tool for social stuff too... like training classes, or dog park and such...

such an uphill walk, isn't it?

and then people starting coming there with unsocialized, aggressive dogs, so the original crowd started changing their schedules to odd hours. It was too bad. At 3pm was the small dog hour and then at 4pm the large dog group. Jake is big, but so gentle and loving to small dogs that we would show up at 3 and stay until the big dogs were leaving.

And it only worked to a point. It was several towns away and the people there were very local and set in their groups. But at least I had people to converse with...

At work, everybody is pretty much set in insular groups. Also Maine is very "family" oriented, as in married with children. Middle aged and older singles are definitely outsiders. One thing I was fortunate in my 17 years at Digital in Mass was that the company had a very high proportion of educated, single or dink, transplants, so social groups were malleable and open. Whereas here I'm just a misfit and I have no interest into turning into one of them. There are 2 horse people that I work with, both of whom were very helpful to me when Algiers got sick and then had to be put down. Bev held me that weekend and literally had tears running down her cheeks. Meaghan helped me in my search for a replacement vet. Algiers was the first thing she asked about when I saw her and she, too, was devastated by the turn.
Other than that, I have nobody up here to share interests with...