Father's day when your father is gone

I don't even know where to start. I miss my dad more than I thought possible. My siblings left it to me to find out how my mothrer wanted to deal with that painful day. I asked my mom, don't know if that was faiir to her. My brother, husband and I are going to her new apartment and will pick up something for lunch. I hate her apartment understand why she sold their house, but I don't have to like it. Itold her I do...a little white lie to spare her feelings. It does look nice. She said last night she looks up and wonders what's she doing there. I think she's struggling more than my siblings understand. I don't talk about it too much with her because since my two strokes my emotions are off the chart. Right now life just hurts.
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