I just found this group

Since 2006 I lost a home, a business, a significant other, some of my freedom to be a caregiver to someone I care very much about and both parents the last in Jul 2010 until this month when a sweet Aunt, who just went through the same kind of death my Dad did with sudden onset dementia. I suffer from 3 different disabilities and I had just been able with some counseling and medication wanted to get out of bed again in the morning. I always did. I just didn't want to and it was difficult to be among the normals since I had been grieving for so long.

I was speaking to my sister who had an even harder time during my Dad's final illness about our Aunt just before she died. She suddenly lost it and accused me and others of pushing her out of the family during that time, when in fact she pulled away and became unavailable despite our best efforts to reach out to her and draw her back in. So last week I asked her to please look at the emails that were sent to her during that time. She did and called me back and apologized realizing that her state of mind had led her to the wrong conclusion. Apologies went both ways and we can move on now.

So I am off to another funeral. My Mom has one sister left, my dad has 3 sisters out of 10 kids left the youngest in her late 70's. It is strange becoming the elder in the families. I hope I am up for it. I have had and still have really good family.