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CTyankee

(64,871 posts)
Sun Aug 29, 2021, 03:08 PM Aug 2021

I just found out my ex had wanted to die and was prepared for it when I saw him in rehab. He was 88.

My son told me he had pulled him aside, when we were visiting him, said that he wasn't going to get any better and he was prepared to go. He died in his sleep a week later.

Since then, six weeks ago, my daughters still break down on our phone calls, my son is okay because he knew of his father's attitude and has accepted his death a bit better.

The funny thing is, my anger over the past several weeks has surprised me. I find that I dwell on stuff that has long been settled. I consider that normal but it gets in my way.

But I have a book to finish and after that I have a trip to Barcelona and Paris planned with one daughter. I think of my age, checked my bank account, and said to myself "Now or never." My loving and sweet husband is fine with my going, as he was with all my trips to Europe. He will have assistance from an home health care agency coming by to check on him, do laundry and grocery shopping. Of course, if his health status changes, I won't go.

Life is funny, ain't it?





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I just found out my ex had wanted to die and was prepared for it when I saw him in rehab. He was 88. (Original Post) CTyankee Aug 2021 OP
There is a peace to knowing that the dying person is at peace. viva la Aug 2021 #1
yes, just living was too much for him at that point. CTyankee Aug 2021 #2
It sure is. MLAA Aug 2021 #3
yes!. I remember seeing that staircase. It was amazing. CTyankee Aug 2021 #4

viva la

(3,742 posts)
1. There is a peace to knowing that the dying person is at peace.
Sun Aug 29, 2021, 03:18 PM
Aug 2021

Best with the book! And the trip... I hope they don't re-close Europe again. Sigh.

CTyankee

(64,871 posts)
2. yes, just living was too much for him at that point.
Sun Aug 29, 2021, 03:23 PM
Aug 2021

I managed to finish one part and move on to the final essay which is in progress. I think the creative force in me was slowed but not stopped entirely by these life events.

If Europe is re-closed I don't go. Worse can happen.

MLAA

(18,570 posts)
3. It sure is.
Sun Aug 29, 2021, 04:31 PM
Aug 2021

Just got home from 3 weeks taking care of dad. I went with him to an oncologist appointment. He told the Dr he has had 91 wonderful years and now is now interested in quality not quantity. So no chemo and hospice engaged. He has a wonderful attitude and still quick with a smile and a laugh.

Your upcoming trip sounds wonderful. Paris is my favorite city. You are probably familiar, but my last trip I found Gustavo Moreau’s studio/home which is now a museum and filled with his art. Loved this staircase.


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CTyankee

(64,871 posts)
4. yes!. I remember seeing that staircase. It was amazing.
Sun Aug 29, 2021, 05:31 PM
Aug 2021

Hope there is not further Covid crises...

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