My mom passed away Thursday evening.
For the most part it was peaceful. We were with her all day and the moment she died. We were there.
There is a hole in my heart. Four years of home care and she slipped away. Not easy at all, physically or mentally however I don't regret the time we spent together, I am glad for it. I miss her and feel so lost. Past two nights I did not sleep with a baby monitor in the bed or my phone in my hand, it feels strange.
I am not a religious person, she was. The Angel is for her.
Goodnight, mom. I love you and I miss you.
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You were a wonderful daughter to her. It takes time to get over a big loss like this.
I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent is terribly painful. I wish peace and love to you and all your family.
May your mother Rest In Peace and may her memory be a blessing.
Mothers give us life and then they are gone from ours. Incomprehensible.
Be good to yourself as you pass through this time of sorrow.
You are not alone; you will recover.
So very sorry for your profound loss. Went through a similar scenario with my mom before she passed in 2017. I truly understand and am holding you in my heart.
I know what a horrible and confusing experience it is. Now I’ve lived to be older than she was when she died it’s a strange feeling. Still makes me cry.You will have some comfort knowing you did everything you could. 
It's been a little over a year since my mom passed. I miss her every day. That will never change. But, over time, my memories of her make me smile more than they make me cry.
May your grief be short and your memories long, she. Take care of yourself.
mother, I can empathize with your loss and feelings of disorientation.
My dad was healthy but died in his sleep almost 3 years ago. It was a huge shock. I heard him the night he died and I knew he was trying to tell me something, maybe he wanted me to know he is still with me after life.
"Memory must take the place of presence, and memory feels like such an inadequate thing..."
You were there when she needed you most, that kind of love transcends the universe.
I weep with you and know the feeling (it's been 7 years this month since mine passed). All I can do is cherish that time I spent with mine and try to recall all the little sayings and nuggets of wisdom that she would impart to us over the years. Those types of memories are what will help to sustain you. 
I’m glad you had that time to be with her while you had the chance.
Much much love and safe hugs. Remember what our own Skittles once said if you need some company while you shoulder this heavy weight: “someone’s always here.”
care and love was appreciated. It there is an after-life, you've got some bonus points! I took care of my Mom for the last 30 years of her life. The last 15 and particularly the last 5 were tough. But I knew what she wanted (and didn't want), and in the end, it helped so much. Still painful, but hope she is free of earthly pain and suffering. I wish the same for your Mom. Take care.
Losing a mother hurts. I'm sorry for what you must be going through.
Wishing you healing and peace.
We can believe and hope that your dear mother is in a better place. Her trials are over.
May you find solace in the memories of your Mom in a happier time.
The gift you gave your mother…keeping her safe at home…it can’t be overstated. It’s so awful to lose a parent. Hugs, my friend.
May you be happy
May you be peaceful
May you be free from suffering
are in Heaven. I on the other hand, am not convinced I'll end up "up there". (It might be the warmer place.)
If my folks try to call of text me from the Afterlife, it **might** be a Long Distance Call.
-FTC
P.S. I will keep my phone next to my pillow (and the ringer on) because, as you said you never know. 
I've lost both my parents, my older brother, and two sisters now. I understand having a big hole in your heart, that can sometimes make it hard to even breathe. There's so many terrific memories that my younger brother and I share though. I hope for you, at some point, there will be smiles when you remember your mom, instead of tears (as Joe Biden says).
Take care of yourself. Sending hugs.
It is not easy but it will get better with time. So wonderful you had that precious time together.
It has been ages since we talked, TY.
I hope everything is well with you and yours.
May you find comfort as you gave to her, and may peace find your heart. Blessings.
I know you have been caring for her for quite a while. I know you are tired.
You should hsave no regrets since you went above and beyond to care for and keep her at home. That must have made everything so much easier and comfortable for her. But I know that it's going to be tough, you were so used to having her care as such a big part of your life. Try and remember that you stepped up when it really counted and your mother must know how fortunate she was to have you.
You have been through so much. You really need a change of scenery and some rest.
I've had my Mom with me for 4 years and 3 months now, and I understand sleeping with a phone or baby monitor. All of it is so hard... but I'm sure losing her is the hardest.
My dear, YOU were her angel.
to you, ss2! 
It is never easy to lose a loved one. The hole is always there. I still dream about my parents and wake thinking that there is something that I want/need to say to/ask them. Mom went in 2002 and Dad in 2004.
The only bright spot is that they missed the Era of Insanity we now experience daily. They would have loved the Obama Era and would have been heartbroken about Hillary. But they also would be happy about Biden today.
May your love and good memories help to warm you now and forever!
She was lucky to have you and you, her. Wishing you peace and strength right now.
We were there when my mom passed as well. Those moments are still etched in my thoughts. I was only 28 at the time. Wish I had more time with her.
It was a similar story with our mother. My sister had her in home care for years, too.
I wish you strength and wonderful memories.
Even if it was her time, it's hard to lose someone dear to you.
She has gone where all hurts are healed, but the love between you is shared still.