Bereavement
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FOR SCOTT (1959-2022)
Its 4:30 a.m.
I have been awake since 3,
trying to find a way
to write about you.
Do I surrender to my grief,
give in to the soul searing words of
Dickinson, Millay, and Blake,
or console myself with the inspired hymnodists:
The Saddest Noise
(Ill Fly Away)
Time Does Not Bring Relief, You All Have Lied
(His Eye is on the Sparrow)
(It is Well With My Soul)
Crushing sorrow
gave Spafford strength
to exalt his God.
I am weak, (but thou art strong)
Even so, I find myself drowning
in a sea of loss.
Even so.
Where you used to be,
there is a hole in the world,
which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime,
and falling in at night.
I miss you like hell.
Life must go on; I forget just why.
Just As I Am
was your only plea.
I did not understand
and did not pardon thee.
And throughout all Eternity
I forgive you, you forgive me.
Forgive me, Scott.
Then I can sleep.
MutantAndProud
(855 posts)That had gone through that and looked back, something that quick sometimes theres just not enough time to say everything you mean to say
Easterncedar
(3,331 posts)Thats a beautiful poem. Six years ago yesterday my sweetheart died. Im still walking around and falling into that hole.
RSherman
(576 posts)That is her poem about falling in the hole. Gets me every time.
Skittles
(158,153 posts)so very sorry about Scott, and your pain
this poem has always comforted me
(Isla Paschal Richardson)
To Those I Love
If I should ever leave you whom I love
To go along the Silent Way,
Grieve not,
Nor speak of me with tears,
But laugh and talk
Of me as if I were beside you there.
(Id come-Id come, could I but find a way!
But would not tears and grief be barriers?)
And when you hear a song or
See a bird I loved,
Please do not let the thought of me be sad...
For I am loving you just as I always have...
You were so good to me!
There are so many things I wanted still
To doso many things to say to you...
Remember that I did not fear
It was just leaving you that was so hard to face...
We cannot see Beyond...
But this I know:
I loved you so -
Twas heaven here with you!
No Vested Interest
(5,193 posts)13 yrs ago today my dear one departed.
His leaving was not unexpected, after illness of many years.
I was younger and stronger and able to negotiate life.
Now I'm older, slower, and missing my dear one more and more.
Skittles
(158,153 posts)time can only make grief easier to bear but it still stays with you - my grandma called it "the price of love"
RSherman
(576 posts)I like the part about "see a bird I loved". Scott liked owls, hawks, eagles, ospreys and always spotted them in our travels. Now when I see one, I say hello.
DarthDem
(5,350 posts)AmBlue
(3,427 posts)...and bares naked my own fresh loss. Four precious souls in my immediate family gone from this Earth within the past 5 years. Still wrestling with the too familiar punch of grief that t-bones me regularly and without notice.
Your prose is a beautiful testament to your Scott. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Wow, what an accurate description of grief. It knows no rules or timing. Just sneaks up and T bones. Sorry for your losses as well.
p.s. I love Edna St.Vincent Millay too.