Bereavement
Related: About this forumMy twin sister died yesterday.
She fought like hell but she was no match for a very aggressive bone cancer, metastasized from stage 4 breast cancer. She had a few good years before the tumors started growing in her bones, first her legs and finally her neck where a bone actually fractured.
She was in agony the past 4 months and docs couldn't seem to be able to gauge her pain and prescribe something to make her comfortable. She told me she just wanted to die in her sleep, so she did.
Jane had a total of 2.5 days in hospice, her lovely husband took care of her at home the rest of the time until he couldn't any longer.
She was more than ready, and I am so thankful she is no longer in pain, but I will miss her the rest of my life.
#FUCKCANCER
Rorey
(8,514 posts)I've read that bone cancer is extremely painful. What an insidious disease. My deepest sympathy.
Irish_Dem
(82,357 posts)Siwsan
(27,893 posts)My heart goes out to you.
My sister also died of cancer. She never found peace, before she died. That haunts me, still.
True Blue American
(18,579 posts)For your Pain and loss. Go with my thoughts and prayers that you be comforted.
Scrivener7
(60,075 posts)You are in my heart.
SalmonChantedEvening
(32,037 posts)Jane was a great friend to me, I'm so sorry she's gone, but glad her suffering is at an end. Sending love and light to you and your family.
murielm99
(33,085 posts)Cancer sucks.
GPV
(73,399 posts)Hugh_Lebowski
(33,643 posts)We're here for you
marble falls
(72,531 posts)Goddessartist
(2,176 posts)May she fly high. Big hugs. I lost a sister a year ago to cancer. She was 61.
ms liberty
(11,367 posts)Sending vibes your way.
#FUCKCANCER
TNNurse
(7,549 posts)As a breast cancer survivor, I will always wonder why I am still around and others are not.
bucolic_frolic
(55,840 posts)Cancer sucks. Pain sucks. Doctors and their meds ... to be gracious, are not always effective. They ban pain meds for side effects, then give us meds that kill 150,000 Americans. Pain is a personal battle, and it's good to know all of Pharma is on our side.
Cherish the siblings moments. They are like no other.
bronxiteforever
(11,212 posts)#FUCKCANCER
multigraincracker
(38,053 posts)I'm from a very small family with only one brother alive. Can't imagine how you must feel.
PatSeg
(53,554 posts)I can't imagine losing a twin though. I'm glad she's no longer in pain.
Scottie Mom
(5,838 posts)While I am not a twin, in my mid 30s I learned that I have half sisters who are twins. Their love for each other and closeness is something very special.
jmbar2
(8,175 posts)I'm so glad that she's released from her pain. Sisters are the best. Cannot imagine losing a twin.
Take care of yourself as best you can. Write when you need to.
Your DU family is here.
BoomaofBandM
(1,962 posts)I am so very sorry for your loss.
area51
(12,755 posts)JohnSJ
(98,883 posts)sinkingfeeling
(58,043 posts)louslobbs
(3,416 posts)experience, a few good years and then the cancer metastasized .it was a relief when she was no longer in pain. I wish you peace and continued strength. #FUCKCANCER
greatauntoftriplets
(179,352 posts)A friend who was virtually a sister to me died of that in 1987. The level of pain that she endured was beyond .belief. That was clear to all.
Fuck cancer.
Solly Mack
(97,271 posts)I can't say it gets easier because I don't know if that's true or not yet.
My sister was sudden, and your sister was expected but that changes nothing. Someone special in our lives is no more.
I am truly sorry for your loss.
I agree - Fuck Cancer.
malaise
(297,971 posts)Deepest sympathy babylonsister
Lucinda
(31,170 posts)femmedem
(8,566 posts)My deepest condolences to you and her husband, and may you both find peace on the other side of this pain.
Delphinus
(12,557 posts)I'm so sorry for you, babylonsister.
My heart holds you.
Wicked Blue
(9,022 posts)Words aren't enough to convey how very sorry I am.
Holding you, Jane and all your loved ones in my thoughts.
Picaro
(2,440 posts)cate94
(3,124 posts)And relieved for her passing. Some things are worse than death.
The night my mom found out she had untreatable lung cancer, she died of a heart attack. We would have liked more time with her, of course, but not at the cost.
Fuck cancer.
quaint
(5,112 posts)hlthe2b
(114,692 posts)I'm definitely with you: #FUCKCANCER
You will both be in my thoughts and I hope the happier memories of earlier times will soon take over your own thoughts.
LuvLoogie
(8,914 posts)and her love and spirit remain with you.
moonscape
(5,796 posts)tragic last months. Heartbreaking.
livetohike
(24,425 posts)loved your sister Jane. May every good memory of times together comfort you
.
CousinIT
(12,753 posts)I'm glad she is finally at peace. Wishing you much strength at this heartbreaking time.
Fla Dem
(27,773 posts)I hope you are finding some comfort that her suffering is over. Peace to you, your family and her family.

pazzyanne
(6,761 posts)It is so hard when we lose loved ones, especially to cancer. Please take care of you as you grieve the loss of your sister. There are many of us who support you in any wat we can.
tavernier
(14,510 posts)I always wished for a sibling. I will never have the pain of losing a sister, but I envy you the joy and love you shared with yours and will continue to share until you cross to join her. ❤️
GreenWave
(12,800 posts)May you find peace some day.
spooky3
(38,868 posts)niyad
(134,035 posts)her, be at peace. Your DU family is here for you.
Dr. Shepper
(3,239 posts)Im so sorry for your loss.
mopinko
(73,943 posts)im sorry for your loss. i lost my next older sister 5 yrs ago. we were pretty much twins born apart.
she spent her last decade in a nursing home w ms. like your sister, her passing was a relief.
miss her a ton, tho.
JustinBulletin
(113 posts)I read your posts always and enjoy them. Thank you for your presence here and your opinions on events of the day. You are a gift.
Take care of yourself.
ratchiweenie
(8,240 posts)Thank god the pain is gone.
2naSalit
(103,811 posts)madaboutharry
(42,037 posts)May her memory be a blessing.
Much love to you and all your family and those who loved her.
Rebl2
(17,932 posts)your loss. My mother is a twin and understand the connection between twins.
Hope22
(4,882 posts)May your sister travel with you. I find my sister in the colorful light the crystal hanging in the window shares. She makes me smile every time. Your sis will show up. My heart goes out to her for the pain she went through. Love to you. 💗💗💐🙏
LoisB
(13,485 posts)TeamProg
(6,630 posts)Maraya1969
(23,568 posts)Grumpy Old Guy
(4,395 posts)Neck and back pain can be excruciating. She must have had a terrible time. Rest in peace.
ananda
(35,515 posts)in the worst way, in a lot of pain and agony.
It was during Covid and she wouldn't see a doctor.
I hate Covid and Trump in the worst possible way
mercuryblues
(16,515 posts)Hugs to you.
50 Shades Of Blue
(11,503 posts)Fuck cancer indeed.
Ocelot II
(131,241 posts)virgdem
(2,323 posts)PatrickforB
(15,525 posts)sellitman
(11,750 posts)Most of us at a certain age have lost family or loved ones to Cancer. Losing a twin has to be even harder if that is even possible.
Glad she is out of pain now though.
Hugs
fierywoman
(8,631 posts)dawn5651
(802 posts)TheBlackAdder
(29,981 posts)CaliforniaPeggy
(156,990 posts)Losing a sibling is always hard, but a twin is so much harder.
You have lost part of yourself, and my god, it hurts!
My deepest condolences, now and always.
TdeV
(160 posts)llashram
(6,269 posts)missing a loved sibling is a process to go through. May she have and you find peace
flying_wahini
(8,281 posts)Its in her breasts, lymph nodes, eyeball and bones. She went strict vegan 10 years ago after her first breast was removed and refused all but minimal radiation and has lived another 10 years.
She was given just a few months to live in 2016 and so we are amazed she has managed to stay with us this long. She was moved to hospice (Canada) months ago after she feel and broke a femur but is up with a walker and back home now. She is one tough bird.
I feel your pain and share it with you. I know its coming but hard to get my head around it.
I know you will miss her terribly. Consider yourself hugged. 💗
piddyprints
(15,121 posts)Captain Zero
(8,954 posts)I've known a twin who lost their twin in adulthood. It is a deep grief, because the twin bond is much more than a sibling bond, it really is. It's ok to acknowledge that this deeply affecting you because you two were closer than siblings, actually closer in a different way than a spouse or partner. Please take care of yourself and support her husband as well. Sending good vibes, all that I can...
tenderfoot
(8,982 posts)KPN
(17,512 posts)and I do understand your feeling thankful her pain is over.
StevieM
(10,583 posts)Tumbulu
(6,633 posts)sheshe2
(98,463 posts)My heart goes out to you and yours.
cilla4progress
(26,526 posts)and glad for her relief.
Blessings!
MiHale
(13,175 posts)Kali
(56,898 posts)BComplex
(9,961 posts)I've had two people I loved die of bone cancer, and, yeah, #FUCKCANCER!
There are no words.
Sending you healing hugs
onecaliberal
(36,594 posts)Oopsie Daisy
(6,670 posts)CrispyQ
(41,102 posts)Yes, fuck cancer. I lost a good friend a few weeks ago to it. Think if we redirected some of our military budget to finding a cure, or even a way to diagnose it before it's already stage 4. My friend was stage 4 by the time she was diagnosed.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
tblue37
(68,449 posts)kimbutgar
(27,558 posts)Sounds like your sister was a real fighter.
highplainsdem
(63,107 posts)it would be to lose a twin sister. Condolences to you and Jane's husband and all her loved ones.
pandr32
(14,307 posts)I am glad your twin sister died in her sleep, but the loss you must feel would be gutting. I am so sorry.
thatcrowwoman
(1,230 posts)You are strong and brave and dearly loved.
May love and light enfold you, bringing you strength and sweet Shalom, Peace be with you and with your family.
🕊thatcrowwoman
LetMyPeopleVote
(182,072 posts)Uncle Joe
(65,535 posts)Peace, strength and healing to you and your family.
Wild blueberry
(8,375 posts)May her memory be a blessing. She will always be in your heart.
Vinnie From Indy
(10,820 posts)I recently lost my dad and I think about him every day.
CaptainTruth
(8,258 posts)You're in our thoughts.
MLAA
(19,800 posts)My dad had similar experience originating from liver cancer. I found comfort in him saying he had a wonderful life and preferred quality over quantity and was ready to go and then no longer in pain. I cant fully imagine the bond among twins though Ive watched documentaries about it.
💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕
JudyM
(29,785 posts)Wishing you a blanket of treasured memories, and extended periods of strength and peace in your heart.
((dear babylonsister))
🌺 Jane 🌺
Desert grandma
(1,077 posts)I have identical twin granddaughters that are 20 now. We raised them since they were home from the hospital. They are so close. I cannot imagine the sorrow you must feel. May you be comforted by your happy memories of her and your knowledge that your friends here at DU send you warm and caring thoughts.
revmclaren
(2,613 posts)brer cat
(27,688 posts)I can't imagine the pain you are feeling. If it helps, know that we are keeping you in our hearts.
debm55
(61,763 posts)3auld6phart
(1,683 posts)Go out to you. Iisalways hard to lose ones we, love and hold loose. . Take care and deepregards to your sisters husband. Take care.
intheflow
(30,253 posts)Holding you in my heart today, and will light a candle for your sister.
barbtries
(31,353 posts)words fail. Look for the signs.
Danmel
(5,805 posts)May sweet memories of your beloved sister bring you comfort and peace.
IA8IT
(6,454 posts)mahina
(20,724 posts)Peace and aloha to her. I am sorry.
mgardener
(2,404 posts)My sister means the world to me.
I can't imagine what it would be like to lose her.
I'm glad she is no longer in pain
FakeNoose
(42,424 posts)
Yes I agree wholeheartedly ... Fuck Cancer! I've lost both parents and 3 of my 4 grandparents to cancer.
Your sister is finally free, and may she rest in peace. May you find solace in your memories of her from happier times.
Cha
(320,590 posts)flamingdem
(40,980 posts)My deepest condolences and empathy. I lost my sister last year. She loved DU.
Also cancer.
live love laugh
(16,484 posts)colorado_ufo
(6,262 posts)AltairIV
(1,068 posts)So very sorry for your loss. I lost my sister several years ago and while that pain and that hole in your life doesn't really go away remembering all those great years we did have still brings a smile to my face and makes it bearable.
Blue Owl
(59,627 posts)AmBlue
(3,460 posts)I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my brother to melanoma. He was just 52yo. They told us when cancer makes it to the bone marrow it's just the worst. I'm just so sorry... but glad she has escaped the pain.
May you find peace in your memories.
MuseRider
(35,176 posts)such a big loss in your life. Losing a sibling is very hard. She was very lucky to have a husband who would care for her and such a kind and loving sister to be with her and help her.
Many hugs to you when you need them, they are out there waiting for you to call for them.
Jack-o-Lantern
(1,020 posts)Death is nothing at all
I have only slipped away into the next room
I am I and you are you
Whatever we were to each other
That we are still
Call me by my old familiar name
Speak to me in the easy way you always used
Put no difference into your tone
Wear no forced air of solemnity or sorrow
Laugh as we always laughed
At the little jokes we always enjoyed together
Play, smile, think of me, pray for me
Let my name be ever the household word that it always was
Let it be spoken without effort
Without the ghost of a shadow in it
Life means all that it ever meant
It is the same as it ever was
There is absolute unbroken continuity
What is death but a negligible accident?
Why should I be out of mind
Because I am out of sight?
I am waiting for you for an interval
Somewhere very near
Just around the corner.
All is well.
Nothing is past; nothing is lost
One brief moment and all will be as it was before
How we shall laugh at the trouble of parting when we meet again!
- Henry Scott
connecticut yankee
(1,730 posts)Please accept my condolences on your loss.
calimary
(90,806 posts)Her pain and suffering - and fear - are over. Thats OVER. Mercifully, for her. And hopefully a wee bit of comfort for you and those who loved her.
Mme. Defarge
(9,053 posts)marked50
(1,593 posts)TygrBright
(21,391 posts)Evolve Dammit
(21,817 posts)kentuck
(115,635 posts)She had a wonderful Sister.
Duncanpup
(15,651 posts)Tetrachloride
(9,705 posts)wryter2000
(47,940 posts)But shes not suffering anymore. It must be really hard to lose a twin
crickets
(26,168 posts)So many hugs.
sakabatou
(46,335 posts)mzmolly
(52,860 posts)for your loss.
MontanaMama
(24,751 posts)Im so so sorry for your loss. Of course you will miss her forever.
#FUCKCANCER
elleng
(141,926 posts)democrank
(12,680 posts)Heres a hug, just for you
babylonsister
(172,804 posts)You made today less lonely for me.
peacebuzzard
(5,887 posts)so sorry for you, bablonsister.
My deepest condolences.
yonder
(10,314 posts)Trueblue Texan
(4,612 posts)Peace and healing to you.
yardwork
(69,647 posts)diva77
(7,880 posts)raising2moredems
(760 posts)To me, the "gauging of the pain" means a physician should prescribe enough medication to the patient to keep him/her comfortable - the hell with the feds when a person has stage 4 cancer. Who cares if s/he becomes an "addict" for a few weeks at best? Kudos to your BIL, not many (male or female) can/will care for his/her ill spouse/partner.
Hekate
(100,133 posts)May she cross gently and rest in peace. May your memories be a blessing.
pansypoo53219
(23,175 posts)AllyCat
(18,991 posts)Peace to you all.
mountain grammy
(29,217 posts)Deuxcents
(27,711 posts)icymist
(15,888 posts)MFM008
(20,042 posts)🫂😞💜
SheilaAnn
(10,780 posts)cayugafalls
(5,984 posts)#FUCKCANCER
samnsara
(18,781 posts)(((hugs)))
Dark n Stormy Knight
(10,486 posts)Such heartbreak to see a loved one suffer so.😥
Heartfelt condolences to you. May you find increasing measures of peace. 💜💜💜
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