home to PA in retirement to help out, thought we could handle it, but are not doing so well. Both Moms are widowed and in their 80's with various levels of dementia, but still in their own homes. Just getting to either Mother and home again takes four hours out of the day.

I'm sure you will find someone when the time is right .

...most all of their docs are out of town and it usually shoots the whole day. They don't get out unless I take them, so they always have places they need to go ie. grocery store, pharmacy, etc., and they always want to eat before they go home, so...... Like I said, you do what ya gotta do. We'll be glad we did when they are gone. You're going to be making some decisions soon if they both are experiencing dementia now. I know how hard it is to deal with, went thru it with my mother in law for several years. Bless you, and hang in there.

so often real life seems to get in the way of our plans, taking us down roads we hadn't intended on going or paths we weren't even aware existed.

it sounds like you have made their care and well being a priority in your life and that is not a bad thing. (do they have any grandkids that could help you out or pick up some of the slack?)

unfortunately we can't control everything. if we could i would be watching a movie now with my mom who would be ninety years old.

"I count my blessings because I have it pretty good..."
glad to hear it. you are fortunate.

as far as not having the desire to date it sounds understandable. there's a lot on your plate and, like i said, you've made your parents a priority. it's a very kind and loving thing for you to do. and perhaps they have become your primary relationship. when you're interested and ready to date or refocus some attention on another individual then you will.

wishing you all the best.