Yeah, it sucks, but we all have to endure losing our parents at some point. We're never ready. I've lost my wife and my dad. Mom and step-dad are in their eighties and are very frail. I know they'll be going soon, and no matter how much I try to prepare, it's gonna hit like a ton of bricks.
My condolences to you and your family.

many of us know exactly how difficult and empathize.

on top of everything else-all the emotions, all the grief we experience, all the technical crap we weigh through, we are thrown into a position where we basically have to re-learn how to live without someone.

and when it is someone we have had in our life for our *entire* life it can be devastatingly difficult

so often it's the little things that are so hard:
the momentary thought of giving her a call
or going home and looking forward to seeing/talking to her
or seeing something in a store ("mom will really like this&quot
or "i've got to tell her/ask her..."

i've been struggling through this for over four years and it has been the worst part of my life.

i still talk to her (yes, out loud), and feel that she is often near me. sometimes i "hear" (in my mind) her words or her response. i ask for "signs" to let me know she is still close and have gotten quite a few. while it does reassure me that she is not "completely" gone, it is a far cry from the existence we once had. and there have been hundreds of times when my mantra has been: i want to go back, i want to go back.

it's a different type of relationship that has been established and i would much prefer our old one to this one. but i'll take what i can. our spirit doesn't die, and neither does love. and it is because of the strength of love that allows us to continue across dimensions. it's a difficult adjustment for those of us left on this side of the divide. but what else can we do?

take care. you are not alone.

many of us.

Please know that we all care and we're here for you all the time.


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kesha