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I cried when the first birthday came and went. I was fine during years 37, 38 and 39. As I said I think it is one of those milestones that is bringing the tears. I remember during the years when my friends turned 40 how we would dress in black and do other crazy things.

Yes, coming here I knew I would not be alone.

A parent's worst nightmare, burying your child/children.

My oldest daughter died from the same tumor Sept 14, 2023. I think of her the same way. Forever 47. I wish I could cry, but I have no tears left. The closest I have come to crying was when I read your post.

I understand and I'm sending you a virtual hug.

The last 5 minutes of the movie I completely lost it as the main character dies from a brain tumor. The story is narrated by a dog whose owner races cars. They both fall for a girl who ends up getting the brain tumor. I was sobbing and I usually do not lose it like that and especially around others. I left and got to my car so I could cry.

He had just turned 20 a few weeks before his death. He would have turned 40 in 2021. That was an especially tough one. I’ve found, even as the years pass, that something always rocks me near his birthday and death anniversary. It may not occur on the date, but a few days before or after, I’ll be in tears.

I’m very sorry for your loss. Nothing else I’ve ever experienced even comes close to the devastation of his loss. Peace to you.

Twenty is so young... I couldn't imagine what that must have been like. Please know that he's never gone as long as you think of him.

their life as an adult.

doing something he would have loved in his memory...

This time of year, I bake things that my mom loved... + share w/ others who are grieving...

I also check out classic car shows because my dad + I made some great memories rebuilding a number of classics...

Consider watching a movie he loved... or play some music he loved... or read something he loved...

I have also planted trees for those in my family who have passed... It's a wonder watching them grow w/ the passing seasons...

Comfort comes w/ knowing they aren't forgotten + they've gifted something to share.

I miss my folks most this time of year... Hoping you find comfort in fond memories of your son...

It is located in Papago Park and it leads up to Hunt's Tomb. I have planted a desert landscape garden and decorate it with different themes. In our front yard which is also desert landscape I have rock formations. For Halloween skeletons are crawling on the rocks. There are snake skeletons and other critters.

When my mom was too ill to cook Thanksgiving dinners, I arranged a Thanksgiving "picnic" from a local diner w/ turkey pot pies + cranberry sauce + pumpkin tarts + hot coffee... Loaded up the car w/ all mom's breathing equipment + supplies + took her and dad to a nearby wildlife flyway to watch the migrating birds... So many hawks were on fence posts at eye level... She was beyond delight that they had all come to be seen as we drove to the refuge + spent a couple of hours simply oohing + ahhing while we ate our Thanksgiving feast... It was a very good day...

my son is his age. he loves to go up there and to Hole In The Rock when he stays in Tempe. he was just up there last week. I grew up there, next to the canal, know the park well. peace to you.

It is so peaceful at the tomb as more folks go to Hole in the Rock.

Of course, his birthday will bring back memories. How could it not? I hope you can remember the love and joy he brought into your life, even if he left this world far too soon, and find some comfort there.

so know you're not alone today. We're all with you.

Losing a child that young to such a terrible cause is heart-breaking to hear and I can't imagine the pain to live through. I am wishing you a flood of good memories from the past to soothe you through the moment and to calm you through your journey and sincere wishes that you meet again in the clearing at the end of your path as well.

Peace to his soul.

My son only lived for 5 days.
He would have be 42 this Nov.

I had a hard time when he would have been 40, too.

is there such a word??? happier for me.

35 years of (hopefully) pride and love.

it is a sibling in my case. Can't imagine losing a son!

That life is precious, but not permanent.

I've lost parents and a son over the last few decades.
Wife has lost parents and a sister.
Like most people, grief comes.

I'm proud to have known all of them. Think of them fondly, who they were and what they achieved during their lives.

Grief is a strange thing. You think it is over, but resurfaces at different times for different reasons.
Ride it, know it will be over before long.
Then concentrate on the living.
Look after yourself, and carry on.

I can't begin to imagine how painful that must be for you.

I hope that in time your fond memories will outweigh the crushing pain.

Be good to yourself.

The milestones do seem to hit harder somehow. Have a plan, cry as much as you need to, we'll be here.

Loosing a child never goes away. I lost my eldest son when he was 38. I think of him everyday. The love never goes away either.
That I suppose is the silver lining as strange as that may sound. Peace be with you. May sorrow ebb and the light of your son, shene in your heart.

Hope you will get to a point where you can remember him with smiles.

year around. December it has the traditional Christmas decorations. In October and November it is decorated for Halloween and Thanksgiving. February has red and pink chains, hearts, etc. and so on for the year. He loved to decorate for the holidays. He was a big fan of the 9th and 10th doctors in the Dr. Who series so we have a Tardis cookie jar and several Tardis throughout the house, a few blankets, and one back pack.

A close friend had the same type of tumor. I miss her her wonderful heart. You are in my thoughts.

I can't imagine the depth of your pain and sorrow. Good vibes and a hug are going your way.

I'm not much for birthdays or anniversaries.

He was a great father.

It is bothering me more than usual today.

Wish I could talk with him.

... please sign in tomorrow, a lot of us will be looking for you.

Im so sorry for you loss,
I first responded to MrsK and Lil, traumatic, to say the least.
All I know, LilBits b day is in May. MrsK and my anniversary is the 25th of this month.
I honestly don't know the years, I just remember our life together.
I pray you can move forward, and not count anymore
Loss, takes time,
Koz

Doing something you both enjoyed is a celebration of his life.
Cancer sucks. My son has been fighting ACC since 2016. It's soul crushing to watch your child suffer and slowly slip away. He turned 50 this year and we are celebrating by taking him on his dream vacation to Vancouver Canada. His tumor is still there but last Gamma Knife treatment slowed its progression. Giving us the joy of more time with him. Sending you a hug.

your baby boy, even when he's not a baby any more, will stay with you. You're entitled to your sadness.

My son too. GBM at 16 years old. The only good thing about the COVID shutdown was that we had one hell of a year all together after diagnosis... despite all of the fear, treatments and sorrow. Healthiest person in the house. It is truly one of the worst experiences a parent can go through. I wouldn't even wish it on TFG though he wouldn't care. I share your anguish. We're in our third year. I can breathe now but it shook every aspect of my life. We are walking the same journey. I have no answers but offer one suggestion. Allow that soul wrenching cry to come out. Let the tears flow. It's like a relief valve for me.

Try to do something tomorrow that you know he'd enjoy. Please talk to others who know... Look into Helping Parents Heal. They just had their conference in AZ. Good people. As the FNG, I could not text you privately until 50 posts. There is so much more to write but I don't want to hijack your post. HUGS. STRENGTH.

Note: been here forever just too lazy to sign up. Hello everyone and thank you all.

May your happy memories of him sustain you in your grief.

I’m so sorry you lost your son.

Milestones and life events are difficult.

Yesterday had more tears than usual but as the title says it was his 40th birthday. The bright side is it will be 10 more years before another milestone birthday. Your comments as well as many left on his Facebook page helped.

I was at St. Stephen's food bank where I volunteer each Wednesday, Helping others is a good way to get my mind off of grieving.

Several posters commented that DU is a family and that we are here to support one another. Thank you for supporting me.