And the holidays will be difficult.

It will get better.

You don't feel like celebrating. It's more of a remembrance.

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Offering you a hug.

for you. Lean as hard as you need.

You do not have to meet anyone's expectations of how you should be doing, feeling, being. I cannot even begin to imagine what you are dealing with, but you have our support and love and none-judgment here.

You do not have to meet anyone's expectations.

Please be gentle with yourself & do whatever you are comfortable doing, including nothing.

Try and remember her with a good deed for someone.it helps

I'm not sure we even put up a tree. There seemed to be no point.

It never went away, but we learned, he learned, to live with it.

In time the memory of the love is healing as the absence no longer feels so much as what it is.

You have my deepest condolences.

Be well.

The first year is the hardest, although that doesn't ease your pain now. I think you should do what you are comfortable with, even if it is staying home alone,

Hugs from your DU family.