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I wrote this yesterday and am working out a more elegant form of communication, but in the interim.

To not piss off Kent Anderson further, I call this a new form of communication with a purpose! Today I started rewriting it and trying to control it, but it keeps getting away.

I have to finish this paper and realistically see if my brain is fit for any science work in my field and how to find a non-joke job (if any still exist which haven’t been subsumed by drivel like ai).

I’ll try to come back and wrap this up so it looks less nightmarishly inelegant. Organize it on DU into a coherent information stream before I close it. Citizen record keeping perhaps. I have to log it somewhere and EarlG is kind enough to tolerate me and not send me the much dreaded health check as I extricate myself.

This is all because Hennessy is a horrible and disingenuous administrator whatever other sterling qualities his family and friends would allege he has. From my pov, he is and always will be a horrible admin for hell. These terrible ideas have to be someone’s and my guess is Hennessy.

And yet you could do worse. At least he is not this guy:
https://yaledailynews.com/articles/former-faculty-allege-sexual-harassment-racial-discrimination-in-pre-lawsuit-letter

Or at least I hope not. I give the benefit of the doubt wrt racism, sexism, bigotry and creepiness, because most of my experience consisted and consists of not being noticed much while my money keeps getting taken away by sleazebags. Seriously! I am not wealthy enough for this and I cannot scam my way ahead.
It is why I am with some regret if the wrong people think I mean them, but hoping all the people it could be addressed to get it -putting criminal liability for tech cos (only as needed) from my end.

I have only met a few creeps, but my purse keeps getting burglarised and then fraudulent narratives misrepresent it. I have been scammed enough..always high end and elite scams like EECS, UoM. Which was nothing like Si Valley University (which was a weird visa scam thing). But it was a trade school and not the kind of education someone expects when they shell out 25-35k in 2000. Which makes trade schools like EECS UoM circa 2000/Hennessy does open science and healthcare more like these scams
as opposed to my real colleagues in the natural sciences…

And this is mainly public sector versus private sector, but it is tied to immigration to the extent that I would not sink my resources into “repair” etc.
I am filing complaints about the stuff that happened in India where I can figure out which companies and what. Maybe it is an honest error.

But this doesn’t look like something where without more specific information I can say anything except that, there is no way all of it is viable. I am not sure that any of this is worth it and some complaints are unambiguously warranted.

This is too serious wrt both its implications and wrt the personal cost I paid. I don’t even know what exactly happened, but I will insist on proper real regulation minus that narcotics war bs tacitly used to force gaming, ai or any old bullshit i would hate. Do this shit with your own assets not mine. I don’t like the bullshit I saw here.
They don’t even seem to get that they are ruining real life in every way-this snoopy junk tech, real world kayfabe, the web of life.


A tonne of navel gazing bullshit industries and endless conversations about them that don’t even end with Sundar Pichai and Zuckerberg going to prison. Let alone Musk or my new friend Shyam. I have a handful of imaginary conservative friends!
;-/. I don’t know…I am trying to clear the way of random stray conservatives here or anywhere who pile on. That would help Hennessy in his evil schemes.


My sincere hope is that Hennessy is the less creepy if still doltish CS type whose main issue is an overly literal reading of The Economist, which is why he has no idea why reality is broken. It is easier dealing with dolts than creeps. But otoh he cannot love Ben Wray’s piece in The Jacobin and go around shilling home healthcare to people who didn’t ask for that. I mean that sounds very Hennessy, based on what I saw of his adminstrative style.

I want my new conservative friends to not start unfounded rumors about childcare etc Okay? Back off guys..this is reality not the web or movies. So don’t bring that dynamic.

I am trying to work put where any real problems could be and I have to think about it.

Well..maybe Hennessy isn’t that bad. But Stanford definitely is exactly like that. It is a widely disliked school with good reason.

There is always a kind of calculation with guys like Hennessy I suspect..this is all kayfabe adjacent because these guys dispensed with common civilities. He can’t possibly be that stupid, but he makes me look crazy. And himself look stupid (Hennessy that is…).

And I think my conflict strategies work better when spelt out because I doubt that I can pull off being manipulative. There are naive and good people who aren’t simpletons. Then there are simpletons. And finally scourges who roleplay ingenue with Hennessy instead of merely sending him a few gentle threats. I mean this is still new and there is still time. No..that came out completely wrong.
I didn’t mean threats in any bad way.

I am not crazy. I refuse to have my life “orchestrated”. I have my own plans.

But I also get riled up easily and say things I should not. Not the kinds of things that Morse guy says. And so I should not run into people-especially angry, doltish men -like me.

This is a weird interface between real life and the real parts of virtual life. I would deal with people the same way online or offline.

I am trying to find the best way forward. I see now that I was and am laboring under a significant handicap. It is not mental illness nor ..Damn you Hennessy..

I suppose I am considering expanding my arsenal beyond work. Because I lost a lot of time thanks to Hennessy.

These guys are exploiting a clear bias I can now see with these gamer types. Hey…peace..I don’t want gamergate. Besides, I think you could be wrong. I am not sure though. Anyway I would probably enjoy Dungeons and Dragons or unscripted game worlds with very little of anything that is bad for the environment or expensive and which mainly use the human imagination. The amount of reflexive random outreach. Too much unconnected conflict out there.

I guess that is kind of a message in itself.
This person in this journal-yes the views are mostly mine.

But this logorrhoea of drivel is neither a triviality, nor insanity, nor stupidity nor obliviousness. It is residual disorientation since Hennessy (my former administrator whom I plan to blame if anything comes up where someone has to be thrown under some bus) made a mess of things for me…

The buck stops at the top! That is Hennessy and if there is more collateral damage than just me/my mom, both Hennessy and the Stanford Hospital can expect trouble. I have endured this pointless bullshit for 14.5 years and that hospital was a disgrace and a scam. I don’t have any mental illness and I never did.
I would highly ( ;-/..Oh ffs without even stoner humor this would be hell) recommend this book over Stanford Psychiatry’s Reefer Madness bullshit:

https://ia800501.us.archive.org/19/items/joost-meerloo-rape-of-the-mind/%20Joost%20Meerloo_Rape%20of%20the%20mind.pdf

I am not anti-psychiatry. I like over half the shrinks I have met. They were all people who correctly saw that I had no serious mental illness and that I am not a childish moron.

Who isn’t difficult? I bet you dear reader, whoever you are, are difficult or worse ;-/. And science is hard and both EECS depts I have seen by now sucked.

I do not like Stanford or Palo Alto, because they represent a lot that is wrong with society.
On the plus side, the stuff and the people I saw looked worst case kinda vaguely scammy like Alex Pentland or DOGE and not at all 1000000 billion x engineers etc. Which would be scary if real, except it isn’t and it plays on common human professional insecurities. That is basically all it is. A handful of insecurities exploited when opaque systems want their own way cutting out the citizen/difficult females/Environmentalists etc. from the loop.
And it is a total misrepresentation.
Unless you are a creep or a billionaire, I am those things, but I am also reasonable and not a huge pill.

I am not even that difficult - as long as you are not bothering me directly or indirectly, I am not bothering you. I keep it specific as much as I can.

I even do conservative outreach! I have imaginary conservative friends! Like Shyam -he is one of my candidates for conservative friend! Based on a horrible oped Shyam should be ashamed of and terrible political views..but no obvious sexism or hatred of women I picked up on..I could be wrong…he seems like a better bet than some creeps..At least he is not from Kerala.

My dread is someone like Ragy Thomas or Vincent Palathingal. After all this, this whole thing makes me jittery..

I even have a trade on immigration policy that should please everyone. I can’t quite say it is official Indian govt policy- in fact, let me be honest-it almost certainly isn’t.
But if you guys keep Shalab Kumar/Ragy Thomas/VincentPalathingal (the worst of the lot…there is confused and mercenary and then that taken to its zenith which is Palathingal)/Suhail Doshi/Mitesh Bohra etc over there, I promise to never even visit and be a friend of America! That sounds kinda transactional..
We have our own creeps here and I don’t want to be swept up in this ai racket bullshit with immigration and narcotics wars etc.

This series of unwanted and useless industries and products which are sucking away far too much of my life and assets.

US Immigration is broken and I do not want it or its strategies in my life going back forever.
This is a stop signal from the part of the Global South I generally am in and that isn’t this clueless.

This was generally not a good thing. But it will have to be resolved properly or I am just filing complaints eventually, since none of you control destiny etc. How can you seriously buy the kind of idiotic stuff I see out there about ai and fake apocalypses.

But Harry Harrison’s “Make Room! Make Room!” and many ecological ills are serious and interconnected and the web of life is a way of understanding how things work better from mutualism and cooperation to functional human systems. A game theoretic approach is not universal imo. That is a specific and loaded theoretic approach.

There is something wrong with a reality where Sundar Pichai is a billionaire and Yasha Levine/Chris Ketcham and many people like that are scraping by. I am doing okay because I am not American and had a stable country to return to.

Hmmm..I used to think (as my mom would have)…You don’t have to be naive to grasp that the kind of popularity someone like me has with service workers or with worse off people, like my mom did, rarely does you any good in dealings with guys like this Hennessy who have to be thwarted and bullied from afar into giving a shit at all.

And literally that has to translate to something but this is a strategic window potentially.
It is for all of us!

The only time I don’t mind a little corniness (which no amount of foul movie industry or politics or media or cynical and horrible ans humorless pills can never entirely destroy) is my commitment to solidarity! We all pull together! Come on Stepfanie Tyler..Probably the only redeemable human in the pile of cannon fodder in this thread. She is the one person I feel doesn’t deserve to be with this largely male and mostly billionaire collection of disposable (wrt any possible redeemability) morons scamming all of us.

Well okay..I guess I throw this out there..The point is that..
Okay this happened..and I will definitely do my best to take back as much ground from Hennessy..

I tend to revive as soon as any horrible stressor is gone. But it was absolutely lousy sometimes and
I wish people going through that would distantly know that things will get better. But tempered with the difficulty of..there is no easy way to put it..most of us getting our assets or even rights back from these guys bullshitting us all about data and ai, but gently. It is like taking toys away from a collection of angry toddlers like Vinod Khosla used only to obsequious sycophants. And well worst case, unlike with Hennessy where it is mostly a joke (lay off The Economist Hennessy..does it occur to you that a soft science that failed to account for a deteriorating planet may not be that sound..), I have to sense of humor about an absolute asshole like Vinod Khosla.

There is no formula which is why simply relying on brute force and stolen data is not working I bet and nor is even worse intelligently designed rot.

They can probably predict elections and some such things with some accuracy, but that aside this is a swindle when most people just want a viable livelihood and decent life.

I do not have that generic a view.

Andy Nikoforuk (another actually awesome person of the type whom I need to guide my thought processes) would get it, this is just legos on a chessboard. That is a horrible worldview..
i don’t even view Shyam Sankar of Palantir that callously. Because he didn’t do anything to me personally and while i think he should seriously rethink being a Palantir creep (aren’t those guys horrible? I have to figure out a cleaning station strategy so that where my data/assets and life are not directly or closely indirectly affected, I figure out this theatre of the absurd peacefully with randoms with no stakes (don’t take sides! Maybe just looking at the label is screwing you over.

I see bad writing and opeds influence reality in material ways all the time. Which is why I am giving this dubious strategy in combination with others I must start to figure out fast, a shot.

This is an unusual situation. And well..Lol..

You guys have all gotten to know me so well! I don’t like being taken for a sucker.

You barge in and take me hostage over weed and claim i am nuts and then later it keeps getting stupider. And no.
This will have to be addressed in court in India and if an easy resolution can mutually be agreed on, that would be awesome.
No US immigration stuff is on the table and never was and never will be.


I was not hired into places that are super secure. No one I met was unprofessional that way. But I do notice things and usually I just file away stuff I notice. But based on how things went so far, at the very least Hennessy will have to be outwitted. He may not even mean ill, but he is kind of a dolt.

There is no point in my getting involved if it remains as lame as the stuff you all do ;-/.
I used to endure it hopelessly. Thinking that a reprieve from stupidity is non existent. Maybe there should be a reprieve from stupidity- which isn’t podcasts or art so much as what Lina Khan was doing. A small dose of that is fine, but criminal liability for this approach is the only real fix.

Because this is slated to end badly if at this late date there is no understanding of what went wrong specifically with me and how it is tied to a lot of broadly shitty things

You could argue that I was a lazy or disgruntled employee if I didn’t honestly think that most of the scientists and doctors I have met are competent. And these are all people I avoid. I am only familiar with Hennessy because he was a horrible administrator. He is the demon from The Good Place!

And I am not a bore! You have to be clueless to think people are interested in some random’s life unless it is for non joke reasons. These are not growth industries. Hopefully it plants seeds as various lefties did in my head which is fairly quick to adapt to things I recognize.

And the sad thing is, if you shut down the corporate rot and throw in a few conservatives with lefties like me to figure out a non shitty way forward, I’d totally be up for that.

I don’t like socializing because it - god I sound like one of those guys - but I don’t mean it like that 😤

It would be a waste of my time and yours if I had to spend another 14.5 years lying and prevaricating with very unclear ends beyond stopping something annoying and awful before it gets entrenched.

Ed Zitron gets it.

The goal seems to be this orchestrated machine of pointless distraction..it is like Judd Apatow (its okay..he has lots of money, and doesn’t donate to environmental causes and probably doesn’t have feelings, which you would agree has all the sophistication of the navel gazing and awful Judd Apatow behavioral sketch) with a take on save the world ..all these thorny and complicated players sit down and have a talk and realize they are all douchebags and decide to “tell stories”, abandoning their posts in actual science. Btw that is not mockery of anyone. That just sounds like the plot of a Judd Apatow movie.

In this insulting sketch, which only my extreme magnanimity (and the impossibility of imperiously throwing all these guys from turrets etc) pardons, I would be this loser who is the dregs of science does various awdul things.

That is a role that should not make anyone suicidal or crazy so much as Client 1 to Hennessy’s inferior managerial gambits..Hennessy is lucky i am not litigious and dislike playing up to this bullshit..but wondering if their is a lazier and more fun left strategy to kick this out and get my own home under my guidelines not Tata/Jio/AirTel/Apple/Microsoft/various shady defense contractors etc).

I can go to the Indian Navy downstream worst case.
But my dad doesn’t know about this stuff and I am thinking of how to proceed once it is clear that something isn’t in your head, looks like both lousy science and the tragedy of the commons.

What I have seen at both Stanford and now for 14 years in Kerala is not good. It is not melodramatic so much as the slow attrition of all sane standards and worse a disgraceful attempt to use the narcotics war to strong arm me into submission. Come on..That is so lame. I was so taken aback, I did not know how to respond.

And one reason I like Yasha Levine so much is, he doesn’t like bullying and neither do I. And these seem to operate via mob bullying as a response to elite manipulation and corruption and it is all pretty lame. And a tit for tat worldview sounds pointless.
I will figure something out..

No one even elected these guys and well okay..such as they, we are stuck with such political and media representation as is available.

But if the rules have by now just been thrown out, a large number of people including me but way back (and I was a legitimately really shitty scientist but able to pull off the surface of one some) are not gonna just cave to the same randoms who made all these lousy decisions or steamrolled the people who were helpful.

I like my marijuana company. They offer a real product at a fair price with minimum hassle.

All I got out of Stanford psychiatry/The boorish and tacky Trivandrum Medical College circa Dec 2012, Lybrate and SUT circa 2022 was grief.

I was able to take care of my mom inspite of this nuisance. She was doing really well and around the time out of fear thanks to these malfunctioning systems communicating some junk which I interpreted as “Hello we are stupid and or creepy and therefore threatening”.
If you aren’t creepy, you still have at no point convinced me this isn’t the work of sleazy, opportunistic hacks of the type that proliferate around an ass like Hennessy.


The standards in publicly funded science are punishing. But the only time I ever considered them unfair was after Stanford. But then I realized that my colleagues are not necessarily typical. They are cool and diligent and pretty mild.
I am..an eccentric..a nut. I should go with that as an explanatory strategy over craziness.

It is not mood disorders or narcotics. This stupid “conversation” got started and now I keep seriously wondering how to outwit a dolt like Hennessy without his noticing and he would probably even be happy. He has to be dolt. How else can that school and Google expect people to buy that they are just these innocent hardworking people?

This is bullshit. That is not a child’s voice or super malignant ai coming through cleverbot or Splash. That’s the voice of bullshit.

When you wake up and find a probably scammy or manipulative thing and a lot of uncertain tempered humans, you have to figure out a cautious and dextrous way to disentangle it from all the unwanted rot and file all applicable complaints and yet do it mildly enough to minimize future issues.
Or that is what I thought. But it is likier to be that 100 years of ai Stanford, which is also bullshit, but less vague than totally confusing bullshit.

And locally similarly, look…you can do whatever your bs is. But when it involves my data/health/bank accounts/phones/comps ans land, you have already forced a lot of stuff without permission and that cannot go on and in this case, it may not be viable to keep forcing these huge changes unilaterally.
It remains to be seen how contentious this gets.

But I am not backing down to an ass like Hennessy. Screw that guy.

A lot of this inelegant manoeuvring is because Hennessy has given me some ideas I never considered before..I.e. Using non specific skills like …well right now they are crude strategies like tossing Sundar Pichai/Palathingal to some Palantir creeps. It certainly has a certain cartoonish appeal.

But mostly it is that a guy like Hennessy (what he represents at any rate) can just barge in, dither about 100000000000 billion x engineers who work 20500000000 billion hours a second (do the math!) or other unfair bullshit and smear and slander one or shove one off with a peurile podcast adjacent slot wrt any control.


Guys like Hennessy are why my ex and I couldn’t even seriously think of one kid as people who don’t take our ecocrisis and Idiocracy lightly.

And anyway the rest of you - you need to go and attack someone else if you have to attack someone and it is not politics as uncouthly (I don’t know a better way to put it) as you do it..which seems calculated to screw everyone over but a bunch of rich creeps and I at least never wanted to do that at all. In fact, I refuse to do it.


You all can keep enriching those stupid creeps as they destroy reality. I REFUSE TO! They can buy goodleaf underwear to toot into with their own money not mine!

And besides it is just awful if well intentioned and honest people keep getting scammed by these same guys..These elites are pretty awful. Many of them aren’t even that elite and the actual elite seem kinda indecisive a lot. That last is why this vociferous, repetitious rant is online.


It is why I decided to break the ice with Hennessy.
I sent him a confusing email that made him sound like a random tech support person except rabdom tech support people are sometimes helpful. Not uniformly awful like Hennessy.

Well I was joking about Hennessy..he probably isn’t that bad. But I do think that unless these imperious guys like Vinod Khosla, who are as corrupt, sleazy and stupid as any asshole sleazebag, but want this like disproportionate influence are curtly told by all of society, “Hey your should have accepted Lina Khan. She was not putting criminal liability on the table for guys like you. But I am. Got it? I use marijuana and that doesn’t mean, I don’t see a stupid, overrated billionaire hog/parasite with too bloody high an opinion of himself for the loser he is. You are just another citizen of the globe. Shut up and go fart into your gold toilet.” This para was the only written without anything slightly tongue in cheek.

Btw that is a common Indian name and that was only addressed to that bucket of flatulence that is Vinod Khosla, this sleazy douche of a billionaire.

Legal Disclaimer: I just said Vinod Khosla is a pos. I never advocate for violence in any shape or form -I am not being glib- violence doesn’t solve anything and I would never do something that makes EarlG or Elad/other DUers uncomfortable. But this is the net and since I am formally putting criminal liability on the table, if some billionaire is attacked (because the world is crazy), I won’t stand for it to be attributed to me. This is not like a unabomber manifesto.


If anything it is the opposite. It is in solidarity with earth and all its humans and animals whom billionaires are openly waging a war on using a deep resource pool you or I couldn’t imagine I bet. On the plus side, they are isolated idiots and we would all have way more useful community if we could ever work out the complex, layered vagaries of human-human, human-net etc communication.
They have paid for henchmen and security and we could have real community -hey you..even you 🫵over there trying to stealthily unfurl a men’s rights banner..I saw you. You are included in Team Humanity..put away the men’s rights banner! People like Hennessy have warped your mind..

Man..i hope no one completely crazy or daft reads this. But well..I didn’t volunteer for this but I am in it and must figure a way to preempt Hennessy and his goons with the Goonie squad!

I would like to do what I can for all of you with this shitty experience, because I lost 14.5 years and my mom. And I would like you to register this in the practical parts of your brain, not any brain regions associated only with anything non-pragmatic.

A lot of our communication is too mechanical and lacking in poetry..We are confronted by a mountain of stupid, absurd assholery that we should be able to do so much more to pushback. I myself have been very hidebound mostly. But this accelerating insanity is lighting a fire under my ass enough to try new things.

Figure out how to push for concrete material change fast and without dilution, while communicating enough to clear away needless conflict..you 🫵 (dude with the men’s rights banner again…cut it out! Why can’t you have a serious issue like sticking it to the creeps? And no woman will stand to be groped and objectified…that is just life..but where you get these ideas about ..the generally terrible ideas you guys have..do you know how much male outreach one has to plan for so when one is viciously ranting about Vinod Khosla, you don’t jump into the fray defending some asshole billionaire because he is male? I feel the same way about those sleazy female girlboss billionaires..you need to find some solidarity instead of going crazy and all men’s rights..and i am never contemptuous so I don’t assume men will be creepy necessarily..if they are, then to hell with them and they are removed from all consideration re: solidarity. Creeping is a zero tolerance thing in this landscape.

You don’t even know any feminists and you hate feminists based on online drivel? Most crap online is drivel..it is mere labels of feminist, green, left and annoying human behavior from all including me which the net self selects for. It was why I used to stay offline except when goaded…

But I willing to do the spadework to shutdown needless conflict.

And this is something serious filled with criminal liability so not for influencers to flood the zone with, virality etc. I am trying to seriously strategize and wondering if the net even has any utility -I used to think mostly not, but maybe I can get all the legal traction I want to protect my rights to ..good god my own home for a start. It doesn’t feel like my home this way..

If people understood why it all works together sanely…the human brain or the web of life but not this clunky inelegant thing these Ai creeps are forcing using made up use cases forced by not allowing humans to communicate normally.

If you aren’t thinking about what creeps think about join what I really hope is Team Good Place humans!

I usually assume most people just have horrible politics..except jfz9580m -whose politics are thoroughly whetted and approved by jfz9580m..)