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thing to do was to take her to the cat hospital.

I stayed with her for the first shot and the second shot. I held her. I wanted her to feel me, feel the warmth of my body, feel my arms gently cradling her, talking softly to her, to smell me.

When she went limp, the vet confirmed there was no heartbeat. And the vet let me continue to hold her and talk to her.

And I cried like never before. I surrendered her and walked back to the waiting room. The staff was wonderful and caring. They refused to let me leave (to drive home) until I stopped crying for 15 minutes. One hour later, I was still crying. They gave me limitless tissues.

I'm crying now.

I could live to be a hundred and this moment I had with Alice may have been the most humane thing I'll ever do.