Maine

I am a female, 38 years old and have applied for SSDI/SSI well over 3 years ago. I have been on MaineCare 2 full years but just got a notification that I will lose it December 31st. I feel like I am being discrimated against because I have no children. I have been pregnant 5 times and lost all 5. I can't have a viable pregnancy and therefore had to have my tubes tied.

I called DHS and they told me to fill out disability paperwork to get into another program but after 3 week was denied. I have been seeing a MD at Acadia Hospital for 2 years, I have been going to counseling for 1 year. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, Bi-Polar, depression/anxiety, social phobia, sleep disorder and borderline personality disorder. I am taking 4 medications for this Lithium, Lamictal, Topomax and a new medication strictly for bi-polar Latuda. Just these meds alone are over $1000 a month. I just got diagnosed with low thyroid and am on Synthroid. All these meds have to be taken for the rest of my life. I have NO income, I have a lawyer who says I am disabled, but DHHS out of Augusta says I am not disabled to get me on another program for MaineCare. I am appealing this decision but don't know where to turn for help. I couldn't even get public assistance because I didn't have an income and my mother owns a home and has an income, even though legally she isn't responsible for my bills.

I don't know what to do. I am really desperate. I can't go off these meds cold turkey and don't see if forced back to work that I can pay for these medications and live too. Please can anyone out here tell me where to go for help. I have my hearing 2/3/2014 for SSDI/SSI but it doesn't look hopeful I will be approved. What do I need to do have my arms, legs and head cut off to have someone listen to me?