Addiction & Recovery

anyone would feel awful and trapped. You and your loved ones are lucky to have a safe place to ride this out. Many do not. Also, another thought (which is just a thought), " I want to feel SOMETHING except dread each day," you are choosing that thought. You don't have to accept that thought. You could think, "wow, another day sober, in spite of everything." You get to chose how you feel by the thoughts you accept as real.

Having said that, hang in there, you can do this. Your choice of substance isn't going to make you "feel" anything, other than numb. That is one of the reasons you choose to let it go. You are right, get out of your head. When you are having thoughts you don't like, change the channel (change the thought). Scream, do what every you need to do but continue on your constructive path and don't be a slave to your demons.

To constructive thoughts: be the boss of your mind.