Addiction & Recovery

I'm cautiously thrilled that the addict went into recovery. I'm having to watch my motives carefully to avoid trying to control his recovery which would be getting into my disease. No, there are no three am meetings but as a night nurse of 12 years, 3 am is like 3pm to the rest of the world.

There are numerous reasons I want to work fewer 7p-11p shifts but one is that I would like to be able to attend more F2F though I am getting quite close with the online group and may even end up with a sponsor from there. That seems odd, but we'll see.

The ex replaced me 12 years ago. We became friends again 5 years ago and I really did not know until he took my offer to come stay for a while to job hunt that he was an addict. The man I loved and hated and loved in a different way was gone, a wraith in his place. I'm still grieving, true enough. But I'm also healing. Slowly.